I’m Back

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I go through cycles of blogging. Unfortunately. I can get distracted for long periods of time. I wandered off for a while. I’ve been busy posting mostly in Fetlife.com alternative BDSM sexuality community… So much of what I’ve posted wasn’t really right for mass public consumption.

Well, that’s a shabby excuse isn’t it? Anyways.

I’ve been doing a lot of reconnecting to the more spiritual part of my ponderings. I’ve ended up joining a few social networks of various kinds with various alternative spiritual peoples there that have me writing in response to other people, which has me putting my spiritual thoughts into words.. which I’ve then started blogging on those sites… and so now have been thinking… well THIS I could be posting on the Pillow Book…

So here I find myself. Brushing out some cobwebs. Wondering if anyone is even still looking in on the dusty rooms now and then. I’ll just clean up, pop some fresh thoughts out, and see if anyone happens in for a bite.

Love Manifest-Oh!

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It’s amazing what life can put in your path, and really as much as things can and do go wrong. How so much manages to go right.

I have a lot of things in my life right now going wrong that I could focus on… but I’m choosing instead to focus on what’s going right. As Aretha Franklin said, you’ve got to Ac-cent-tchu-ate The Positive.

Last night, I dreamt, the only thing I remember on waking was a piece of dream where I was standing in my backyard with the discovery that a red rose bush had grown and blossomed overnight in the grass. More »

Shit I feel good.

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I love NRE (new relationship energy) I’m vibrating with a fine mix of brain chemistry that’s intoxicating.

With a perpetually wet pussy and insatiable desire to torment my new boy that is kept in check by my fibro my body, and not wanting to break a new toy.

I’ve been having an amazing weekend, the stomach flu that floored me during the week seems to have left me. pumping with enough of that good NRE that I can make my way to MVK and show off my new pet. More »

Today I think on my accomplishments…

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and I’m proud.

I came from a very poor family, with some troubles, and some genetic issues that have affected my health in various ways throughout my life. With my share of childhood pains, we all endure, like the death of my oldest sister. Some childhood abuse from a teacher. Some health issues as a child. Among a myriad of other things.

I waited the longest out of my siblings to get my first real job (besides paper routes) at 13, at the video store. They all started at 12, as dishwashers or bus staff in restaurants… but I was too… lazy, lol, to work in the restaurant industry and was holding out for a cushier job. The video store sales girl sounded like a good option. I started saving for my future. With that, babysitting, and delivering papers.

I graduated from high school at 16, (I had been enrolled a year early and despite taking a year off to go to Europe, graduated early) and moved into my first apt. at 17, and supported myself and my first boyfriend. Student loans, full time work, full time school. Was to become my life for many years.

I was the only one in my family to go to get a post secondary education, and I achieved 3 degrees. A BFA majoring in studio arts, printmaking and drawing and a BA in psychology from UBC, and an MA in counselling psychology from the esteemed Adler School of professional psychology. A copy of my thesis paper, is available in their library. 🙂

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Scammed? Betrayed? At risk?

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I’ve had friends over the years fall prey to this. Friends or lovers, scamming them for money. Sometimes from within the community, that charming Dom in need you’ve gotten close to online, that new friend you made at a munch with a business idea.

People get so taken in, when it’s someone they care about, that even after they’ve lost much in the way of money, or materials, or hard work and personal time, that they still don’t want to think the person who scammed them ‘planned it’.

It is important to trust one’s friends, but at the same time, please be aware. This can, and does happen all too often. In fact, the number of friends and aquaintances I’ve heard these stories from is all to frequent. Especially because I know most people do not tell others that they’ve been scammed. Usually the situation, and even the scammer, will encourage the person to feel so shamed about it, that people will blame themselves, not the scammer, and will be embarassed to share what happened to them. Or will feel if they speak out they will be gossiping and causing drama. More »

Well the chicken’s are long gone…

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Amongst other news. An anonymous caller called in and reported us to the city bylaw officers. We’re not allowed to keep any fowl in Chilliwack. This happened earlier in the summer, the girls had become quite tame, and we’d just added a third hen, that lays blue eggs.  They were adopted out to a family that hopefully will love them as much as we did.    More »

Recent pics of me, for the yahtzeers

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Saturday morning in a small country garden.

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Australorps

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Sounds a little like the name of a dinosaur. I guess that’s not too far off. It’s a type of chicken. It’s the type of chicken I brought home today as an early birthday present. Two 4 week old australorps. Good layers, of light brown eggs, friendly and passive, black with an irridescent green and purple sheen. Beautiful chickens.

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Life is Good

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I only have two puppies left at home, two left us this evening. Though I spent a big chunk of the day with the four of them, can’t believe we’re down to two. Then tomorrow one more leaves us, and then we’ll only have one remaining. He’ll be with us a week before his people come to get him.

Yesterday I painted two birdhouses for my garden, I now have a total of 4 bird houses. I have a row of three on a little shelf on our shed. I painted a little garden on the edge of the shelf. It looks like a small city block, for birds. One of the houses is already being furnished by some very amorous chickadees. More »

Wonderful day

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I’m so happy. My girl is home. She’s sick and she’s tired, and I want to take care of her. I adore her.

When I got home this afternoon from a morning of swimming and shopping with my best friend I brought my girl treats I had bought for her. Colouring books, a giant bubble wand and bubbles (those ones that are very phallic… and, er, could be easily perverted. It’s getting filled with water and frozen afterwards!), some sour gummy worms.

We grabbed all the puppies, and settled in the backyard with a blanket.  More »

Compassion society…

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I was lucky that given the severity of my fibromyalgia, and having been diagnosed by one of the leading rheumatologists in BC, and having had the benefit of a very good family Dr. and specialists, that getting an official form from my family Dr. for the compassion society was a simple form fee away.

It’s strange though. I’ve never used marijuana recreationally. Not a once… it’s weird to be 39 years old and taking pot for the first time, granted I’m not smoking it, but eating it in baked goods and tinctures… but still kind of odd. I just don’t like to feel ‘altered’… I like a clear head.  It’s actually a lot like the synthetic pure cannabinoid prescription they put me on.  I haven’t been using very much of it, just a cautious add on to my other prescribed mediation, but I’ve been impressed with how little side effects and how mild a medication it is.  It doesn’t make me feel altered in any way really, except for relaxing my body and easing some of the pain.

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Pain, people and puppies.

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Just had my second session of massage therapy. It wasn’t as pleasant to recieve today. I was more sore and tender, and a lot of it was uncomfortable for me. I could still feel it working and so far afterwards I’m feeling some loosening and relief, so I think it was still as therapeutic as last time, but not as pleasant. Different therapist this time. I’ll try to stick with appointments from the same therapist that saw me the first time.   When you have fibro touch is painful.  I’ve become more accustomed to greater touch sensitivity, but hurt still hurts… I’ll have to see what the next few days bring.

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