Oct 6, 2002 - Spoonings
Well, we've got our e-cards section back up and running, and now running properly. When I have extra time (ha ha) I'll make some more e-cards for it. I love making images, but I still have so many galleries to sort from my last photo shoot. I really love working with pictures. I have so many ideas, and I
want to shoot so many things, but I still haven't gotten around to coding and putting up the last ones! So I'll have to hold before embarking on new territory. I have a lot of wig pics I want to do. I need to plan my next live head shave. I have some foot fetish pictures I want to do 'giantess' style, with stepping on little men... like the goddess Godzilla! <laugh> The little sample there, is from half a dozen little captures I did on the web cam just to get a sense of the concept before I pull out the high heels and recharge the batteries for the big cam. I was checking back in through the photos I've taken, just for the journal alone, over the last years, and they're quite plentiful. Out of curiosity, I checked in on this date last year. Here is what I looked like, this day typing my journal entry, exactly one year ago:
Here is what I look like typing my journal entry live on the cam tonight:
Hmmm, a little more fat, and a little (very little) more hair, but otherwise, not much difference, that day, like today, I'm in lounging wear, have no makeup on, and have decided it's a kind of black and white kind of moment. I think today, though, I have a little more spark in my eyes, and a little more of a smile on my lips. That's kind of surprising, in a pleasant way.
Maybe it's because I had, and amazing night last night. I went to a local BDSM play party, with Wolfe, Aya, and Kali, and we had a blast! I jumped right into the fray and played with Kali, and had a really good time. It was... yummy. Very very yummy. I'm looking forward to maybe playing some more with her, in a more private atmosphere. I won't go into too many details in that scene, other than to say, I had her on the medical table, I played with a lot of my toys, a lot of her joys, and I worked up a sweat, the good kind. My arm is sore today.
After that, I got to co-top with two other lovely ladies, Aya, and another friend, and we worked over a cute boy, who was a bratty sassy bottom. Which irks me. I played long and hard there though, for two main reasons, first, the Domme that invited Aya and I to play, wanted co-topping support and camaraderie, not that she needed any, she was wonderful. We laughed and laughed, I've never heard a Domme ask a sub the capital of Uruguay in the middle of a heavy heavy beating by three tops simultaneously before, that and forcing a rendition of row row row your boat. I also played longer and harder than I originally anticipated, because even though he was a smart mouthed brat. He could take it really really hard. Which for a bit of a loving sadist, like me, when someone is happily writhing in pleasure and agony while you wail on them over and over with all your strength, is a pure joy.
The only down of the whole evening, was that my houseboy (ohhhhhh... naughty naughty houseboy) did not show up on time to escort us out, he was the chauffeur, well, rather than wait and wait, after half an hour of lateness we cabbed on out to the party, when I came home, there was a plaintiff and apologetic message on the phone from the front door intercom as he apologized for his lateness, to no avail, since we had left already. He is in such trouble. Though I'm sure he has probably punished himself enough over missing the party, and worrying what is up for him, because he's on my naughty list already for recent transgressions. All this after I gave him a pair of lacy red satin panties. You'd think I'd get more respect <grin> I let the cross-dressing sissy bugger keep one of my old ratty wigs I had neglected that he fished out of the garbage can to boot.
Anyways, the irritation of his absence to pick us up wore of quickly as the nights delights came on fast and furious. We stayed till the party ended. Met up with several friends, some from our very first play party that we had went to together, and others that we met with that night. At the end of the night the small group of us that had assembled and chatted and inter-played came back to our loft, and we ordered in Chinese food, and made green tea, and sat in dim candle lit darkness, in cuddly piles of intimate conversations. Sometimes the fact that the loft is so small is nice, because it creates forced intimacy (buah ha ha) which was great in this crowd, I don't think we've had so many spoonings on the couch-bed downstairs before. That and people getting naked and showering, getting into comfier clothes, and just enjoying the contact of skin and warm lush bodies, was lovely lovely. We were all exhausted, happily, mellow, and still revved enough for quality conversations and connections. Peace.
I checked in with the lovely Kali this morning, and all was still well, and she left me a message later in the day with an invite out later in the week for sushi, and.... Well, I'll find out, but you might not. I don't know how much I'll tell, regardless of how much I'll kiss!
Oh so much to talk about! I still have nightmares most nights, last night in my nightmares Iggy fell into and was vivisected by a huge crude pit trap with wooden spikes, too deep and treacherous for me to reach him as his obviously fatal wounds caused him to writhe. I woke up, stayed awake for a while, and went back to sleep for more nightmares, which I won't bother to plague you with.
I still think of my ex, every day, reminded in little ways, of my continuing love and grieving of her.
I still have my ups, and my downs, my struggles, and my achievements. Life goes on, and seems so much the same, but so so different all at the same time.
Oh! I know what else is new, a great new site has gone up. Called sex on the edge. They graciously invited me to contribute to their first edition, and so I have a gallery there, and was interviewed. This e-zine is a free resource with a wonderful sense of style, and a lot of great information, art, photography, and so much more. Take a peek. Drop the folks there a note if you go by, starting up a new website is a huge amount of work, and a huge accomplishment, little appreciations, comments and feedback from visitors will mean so much to them. I don't know these people well, but I remember well enough when our site first went up, spending my days sitting by the computer, checking the hits in, checking for email, getting so excited by each visitor, and each mail. Actually I often still do <blush>. So take a moment to visit them on their first day up, and drop them a hello!
You may have noticed their banner on our main journal page. I'm sure it will stay there, it's a publication whose values and ethics I think deserve to be noted. This is another site that uses a unique, healthy, holistic, and positive view of sexuality.
Well, thankfully nightmares are just that, and I still have my Iggy piggy safe and sound, him and his daddy, the two men in my life, there by my side, day in and out. I am blessed, by good friends, a good home and a good life. I'm starting to feel, despite my depression, that I am going to survive, maybe even thrive a little. In my own way.
Thank you.
XO
Katt
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