October 2nd - Feeling Butch.
Do I look like a boy? Well... I tried. One of these days I'm going to do drag, and do the whole deal, bind my breasts,
pack something where a package is supposed to be.I've been told by some people that I'd always look girly. That I just have that kind of face.
Round, full mouth, cat eyes... but you know, there are men that have those features.
I remember one day, years ago, where I was feeling very butch, and I huffed my chest out (my breasts weren't bound,
I've never done that before) and said 'hey! I'm a boy!' and my friend took one look at my chest, and burst out
laughing, so much for that. My mild attempts at macho emulation now have been much quieter and subtler
perhaps because of the little wound of that teasing laugh.Then, I've been told by other people, like my friend butterfly, that she feels I could pass!
That there are ways of transforming one, makeup, bindings, padding, the right clothes, the right walk.
I've seen some drag king shows, and have seen some very femme looking women transformed into icons of
testosterone pumped looking masculinity.So why not me?
Hmmmm... wonder what I would of looked like if I was born a boy.
I know my parents would have named me Leif. Interesting...
Oh well, that's enough gender bending for now.
XO
Katt