October 1st - Cam shows and...
Well, I've had some pretty freaky and intense ups and downs over the last week.
What is up with that?
Freaky brain chemistry freak outs and shut downs that I don't think I want to get into... so I'll stick to
some highlights of events instead, and color in a little of the emotion, but tone it all down for you.Lets start with the last cam show, which was on Friday night last. Wow. I acted as photographer
and was there mostly to take pictures with the still digital cam, and occasionally re-position the web cam.
Wolfe and Kitty were the *stars* and they were spectacular. I ended up taking about a thousand images
on the still cam, and had to cut out lots of shots to really hone it down to the highlights.There will be lots of galleries going up from this one. cam galleries, and quality full size galleries from
those thousand stills.We ended up on camera and in action, intensely for 3 hours. We we're all sweaty, happy, and pumping
out creative juices and other juices by the end of it all.Did I get jealous of not being in on the action? Nope! I LOVED being on the shooting end of the
camera, and I love watching Wolfe, my love, loving kitty, and her purring along blissed out by him.
It's a good thing. Love isn't threatening to me. The absence of, is.This cam shoot Wolfe encased Kitties legs and body in saran wrap, then in blue duct tape. Cut her open
down the back, laced her back up again to make a duct tape bondage dress, and then with the tape rolls
and more lacing made a beautiful package of her, then fisted her through the back of the dress.It was mind blowing.
We're going to have the pictures up on the www.dominaction.com site as that is the site that focuses
on bondage and other forms of BDSM. I'm also going to create a BDSM ed. section on that site, and
we'll have illustrated 'how-to's for making duct tape bondage wear as well as lots of other goodies.As we explore different stuff, we'll share our tips and techniques.
So... a few of the snaps.
This cam snap is of kitty right after Wolfe finished totally duct taping her up and before he cut open the 'dress'
tightly mummified, Kitty -loves- being in bondage and was high as a kite from the sheer experience
of it. She is definitely a 'bondage-slut' and she started to have her eyes glaze over and get this soft
expression almost immediately after Wolfe first started to wrap her. She was one wet pussy underneath
it all.
Wolfe then opened the back of the dress up, and laced her up in it, and it all came together beautifully.
Wolfe had creative input, barbie, who popped her head in and out of the room at times had great
creative input and suggested using the rolls as 'cuffs', I had creative input, and Kitty... we'll
she just purrrrrred and purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrred and purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrred.
The two of them together were incredible to photograph. Wolfe had just dyed his hair blonde
and he looked fantastic, and his enjoyment of what he was doing was very evident in the pics.
Now, I've never had this done to me personally, but... not only do I get to have watched
and photographed and assisted in seeing it done with Kitty, but I have that as the sweet
build up and anticipation of the fact that the next cam show... is MY TURN!YAY!
barbie and Wolfe are teaming up on me with some duct tape, and... I've heard rumors
about some of their possible plans. I may have a gown like kitty's, or I may have a bodice
or I may have some other wondrous concoction. There has also been talk of making me a bondage
hood. (eek!!!) there has also been some pondering of making laced arm restraints out of duct tape...
and so many more yummy and exciting and scary (in a good way) possibilities.Other exciting news is that Kitty is in the process of almost having a web site of her own up and
running, and we'll give you all the info on that once it's in place. I've had sneak previews, and
It's looking fantastic!
On a whole other note. My downs lately have involved a lot of me re-hashing some of my
childhood crap and how it has created some of the dynamics I have in current relationships.
Primarily my mother stuff, and how I relate with barbie sometimes. Challenging. It's been
even more triggered for me, with the fact that my grandmother is dying.My grandmother is in her 90's now, but she lived with me, and my parents and siblings, and
literally raised me from the time I was born until I was 12 years of age. She in many ways was
my primary care giver. She was a safe place for me as a child, a haven in a sometimes frightening
and turbulent household. I haven't seen her for many years, as she has lived on the other side of
the country for many many years now.I want nothing more, than to be able to visit with her before she passes away, and it pains me
that it's simply not possible, for a number of reasons, for me to go and to be with her right now.My parents reassure me that it's probably best, and I should cherish the memories I have, instead
of enduring the pain of visiting with a woman who is now blind, no longer wears her dentures, and
weighs about 75 pounds. In my heart though, I would like to be with her, and care for her, and let
her know in person, how much she has meant to me in my life, and how much I cherish her.I spent all day yesterday in bed, I didn't eat, other than a few bites barbie managed to coax into me, I
didn't drink, I moved only to use the washroom. I had been planning to visit my grandmother, and finding
myself now unable to go, my depression hit a low point. barbie considered taking me to hospital as I wasn't
really 'present' much of the day. I wouldn't talk, sometimes I would shake my head yes or no, or squeeze
her hand in response. But mostly, it was as if I had left my body behind. The whole day is a kind of a strange
blur. I just lay in a dark room, sometimes just staring, other times crying softly, quiet, occasionally I slept.
Though mostly, I don't know.. I wasn't really present. Late last night I pulled out of it, managed to eat
food that barbie had lovingly prepared for me, and watch a movie. Make beautiful gentle love, cry in her
caring arms. Though after that I couldn't sleep, and here I am the next morning, early, writing.It's a strange juxtaposition.
All the pain, loss, depression and emptiness in my life.
All the erotic pleasure, love, joy and completion in my life.and how I can find myself in and out of those places... sometimes feeling as If I have no control over it.
and how I take those odd things that move in and out of my experiences and then open them all up here
for you to see.Live in love
XO
Katt
