September 21st
there are a lot of things I could be writing about. Things I've been avoiding.
Things that have been swirling chaotically in the recesses of my thought processes.
So I've pumped out empty shells of journal entries, filled with images of my new kitten
filled literally with fluffy stuff. Not that there's anything necessarily wrong with that, it's
just not what's really going on. Not that the world, and life is not filled with fluffy stuff,
there will always be fluffy stuff.World events are unfolding, as they always are, but now in a particularly graphic, media saturated
controlled, tight deconstruction. The image that comes to my mind is of some one taking an
origami peace crane and carefully unfolding it. There's almost something sinister in the clean
simplistic ritualized information we receive about what happens in the world. What we get fed
to us processed through all the layers of people, politics, culture. The little tubes of perception
that reality gets squeezed through before the images reach our eyes, before the concepts are sung to us
in commanding and soothing tones of carefully scripted conceptual sets.We all sit and wonder, speculating, what it really means, what it really really means.
Our different backgrounds, different beliefs, different politics making for different understandings,
different fears. All of us with a slightly different understanding, or misunderstanding, different levels
of conviction or confusion. About what is happening in the world right now.I could talk about my politics, my beliefs, my fears, my predictions...
but as I've avoided doing so, and I reflect on it, I think the reasons I don't, are because in the scope
of the great grand scheme of the universe, and the myriad of possibilities of what's involved in the
world right now, and in days, months, years to come. I feel small. I feel like really we know so little,
so little, and so much. We have so little power, so little control... yet, together we co-create it all.
How as an individual do my small thoughts, fears, hopes, beliefs, swirling around, really not even
able to click into some clearly defined ideas in some respects, how as an individual do I connect
with all of it, with all of you. With what happens around me.Recession, depression, war. What have we as individuals know of these things, each of us, a different
experience, different understanding, based on our ages, our experiences, our education, every one of
us experiencing and understanding a different world. A world maybe at a cross roads.How do we pull together as a people, not as a nation, not as a political group, not as a spiritual group
but as humanity, to co-create something... what is it we are creating now, how did we all come to
build it together. Because we did. Not just the affluent ones, not just the political ones... but each
and every one of us, adding something to the mix of the world.Every action we take, everything we teach our children, every kindness we pass on, every criticism,
every selfish act, every selfless act... Every breath, every bite, every commitment, every conviction
all of us, as small as we are as a solo being, connects to everything else, is a thread on the big loom of
life. We all create ripples in the pond. The acts of one person, just one individual, have powerful
repercussions. Whether they are global acts of terrorism, or personal local acts of love.Do not underestimate who you are, and what you have inside of you.
The world may crumble around us, and some may seek change, or power, or ... whatever it is they seek
and move to create it, but never forget, you too, are equally powerful, each of us, and we are all
constantly in the act of creation, and whatever comes, we always have choice, we always have our
own internal compass, and our own internal power to move it in the direction it guides us.Listen to yourself, find your own truth, and be wary and respectful of your actions, your beliefs, and
those of the other people we share the world with.XO
Katt