August 21st - Reddy or not...
Well,
I dyed my hair red the day before last.
I can't keep it the same for long that's for sure.
Always evolving a little, cutting bits, growing bits, dying bits.
I need to start documenting that process more, and photograph
and/or video when it's being done. Wolfe did this last hair job for me.
Life is, as always, all over the place.
When
I snapped these latest pics, Just the other day,
I was in one of the more playful and upbeat moods that I've been in
over the last few days. I've definitely had some high points.
Like dying my hair.
And
like finding this second-hand white feather boa.. I've wanted one for a while
I love the way the feathers feel against the skin. Nothing on your
bare shoulders screams Diva like feathers.
Another
highlight was going to the local Pacific National Exhibition
This yearly fair we have, with rides and games, and the super dogs performing,
musical venues, bingo, product demonstrations, and kids with their prize
cattle,
show horses, etc, etc... lots of stuff and lots of people.
Where I won through games of chance... not one, but two big
plush bears... :) Lucky me!
So
here they are, Soliel and Cherie, my big plush buddies.
They're the ones that are really velvety on the outside and super
soft and squishy. I have four teddies like that now, these two new big
ones,
and two smaller ones that barbie and Wolfe had one for me months ago.
They
are honestly the only type of stuffed critter I seem to be able to tolerate.
Funny.
From
12 years old till 6 months ago, you wouldn't have caught me
within meters of a 'stuffed animal'... I was too.. err..
sophisticated? (stuck-up?) (repressed)
But
now you see me, smooching and squeezing, naming and chatting,
playing and pouting and parading around with my now small horde
of bears. Soliel and Cherie, and the little ones, Magnus Liberte and Joie
de vivre
So
while I was at the fair, I got some pictures of me in my cowboy hat
and boots, with cows, and tractors, and hay, and some play...
nothing too risky, considering the throng of people constantly around.
We've
been doing lots of content lately, pictures and videos, for erotimania.com
and for dominaction.com Still working on the hair fetish feature site, and
some
other projects... and have some prospective new models I plan to start shooting
soon.
And no, when I say models.. I'm not talking about the bears... <grin>
Talking
about play and playing.. I'm really really pumped about this
upcoming weekend. Going to go to Seattle for a few days, and will be
meeting folx I've been
hoping to meet for a while, Peter from Jane's Guide, and hopefully Jane... and
hopefully
other peoples I've heard snippets and snatches about. I must say I'm
feeling a bit
shy and nervous in some respects too.
One
of my 'bummers' is that spending so much time inactive and in hospital over
the last few months has led to a 40 pound weight gain over the last 6 months...
So.. I'm not as psyched about being packed into fetish wear in a new public play
space
as I might potentially be. The other is that I'm in the process of really
evaluating
my relationships right now, in terms of safety, boundaries, limits, loving self
and others.
How to meet my own needs and the needs of my loved ones with respect and
integrity.
How to negotiate the space between the real, and the ideal.
Evaluating
myself in terms of my role in interpersonal relationships, in terms of BDSM
relationships, polyamory dynamics, and in making time and space to do the life
work
that I want and need to do.
Part
of me thinks I need to set some real firm goals, and make the detailed planning
involved to meet those goals. In terms of my life projects and in terms of
my relationships.
Stop trying so hard to reach fulfillment in my pleasing others in my direct
relationships in
ways that compromise myself.
So those were some high points... I've got a slew of low points too.
But I've decided I need to focus on the positive.
Cheers
XO
Katt