July 11th - Day by Day
Right now I'm living my life just day by day. Hard to plan anything in advance since for me emotionally and cognitively what I can handle at any given moment is something that is often constantly and subtly or not so subtly shifting. It feels good to be back in something approximating the feeling of 'home'...
The kitties which were staying with Kitty are now back with Wolfe and I in the two bedroom suite we've rented. I'll do a picture tour or something once we've unpacked and are no longer living half in and out of boxes.
Unfortunately barbie isn't living with us as originally planned. Which makes me feel like I have an incomplete family/living space. Though at the same time I understand the necessity right now for me to avoid any overt stressors and now is not the right time to work out new family/sharing living and loving space dynamics.
The good thing is, is it seems she's found a place in town and not too far away, and we've been spending a lot of time together. Actually because of Wolfe's work schedule and relationship with Kitty, hour to hour I probably see much more of barbie than I do of Wolfe, and sharing living space or not, she's still 'family' to me.
In some ways I'm looking forward to her settling into her own living space, and then in some ways it will be like me having two homes, which is very much like the situation Wolfe has with Kitty. I'm hoping it's going to work out.
I've basically just decided to work on things around the house and with my life as I find the strength and energy to do so, and to give myself space to rest and relax as I need to. Establishing some small routine has helped me. I've started with the simplest of routines, and that's having a regular breakfast. I figure if I start my day with some structure it's going to help me get going. It might seem odd to regular breakfast eaters, but really, I used to neglect eating in the mornings most of the time, so having breakfast every day is new to me.
I know, not the most exciting of journal entries, but then excitement is not what I'm piling on my plate these days, for a little bit it's going to be slow soft sailing.
Though I do hope to do some photo shoots soon... like maybe next time I get my hair done! I'm sporting a blue mohawk lately, enjoying it. I think I'll keep the mohawk for a while. See what happens, but I still have to shave the sides down, and then color the hawk regularly...
Well that's it for now...
XO
Katt