April 17
Some of my recent mail...
The feel good come on's:
(some from strangers, some from friends.)
dear mistress,
i obtained your email
from internet.
i am a female would
like to know your interest to meet females.
do you play with
girls??
pls reply.
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Wow,
How can i get to know
all there is to know about you and if you are
still searching for a
man to love you for you? well email me a note
if you want to make me
your friend and get to see if you can enjoy
having me be more you
are so hot I would enjoy getting burnt when I
touch you
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I just wanted you to
know that your sole man is here, and I've gotta whole
lotta loving for you.
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Spiritual support: (the
one posted from someone who has written me before, and is very caring
and respectful, but is still working at saving my soul - and yes, I
was happy to give permission to be included in prayers, though I'm not
god-based spiritualy, I have great respect for other's paths)
I have been
reading your journal entries and impressed by your
candor and openness of
you deepest feelings even the
darkest and most
explicit. You have motivated me to
be a better journaler
myself, if there is such a word.
Anyway, I have read
your struggles and have felt that
you have been so close
to the door that leads to the
power and help you need
to fight your depression. Not
saying it is some magic
pill or action, although I
never discount the
power of a miracle. I am not
really sure how to say
this without coming off as a
complete wacko, so I
will try to say it in a way that
you can hear it I hope
and pray.
It seems you might be
missing something in life and
you have been trying to
fill that hole with a variety
of activities, mostly
with sexual adventures.
Although sex is a gift
from God, it is not a
substitute for God. I
could be wrong, but you seem to
crave some deep inner
fulfillment and completion of
your whole self and all
the different parts that make
you the unique
individual you are. I cannot help but
wonder how ready you
are to turn to Jesus and find
what you have been
looking for for so long. Ok, now
you think am nuts or
some fundamentalist wacko, but I
hope you can see that
am not and hope you will find
someway to Jesus
through any Christian Church in your
area. I am not familiar
with denominations in Canada,
but hope you would
consider a United Methodist Church
for I am one myself and
find we are far more
understanding and
accepting that others of those who
are say living outside
the box of what is considered
by society as
"normal". I heart goes out to you as
you struggle through
your depression and with your
permission ask to pray
for you.
Hope your day gets
brighter and you will consider
turning to Jesus.
Love in Christ.
For some reason, I'm
also on a woman's ministry email list...
I also of course, get
the regular spam for penis enlargement and diet pills. I don't
think I need either... really. <smile>









