January 15

This picture was taken in the summer time vacationing on one of the gulf Islands.  It's here to remind me of warmer times.  The sky is grey, and the days are short.  Mind you, I love winter, I love all the seasons.  Fall is my favorite, and we usually go vacationing on the gulf Islands in early September, and everything is magical.  So it's not so much the winter I'm trying to escape from, as to just remind myself of those warm breezy nights, and the enveloping ocean.  

The other thing I'm trying to remind myself of in looking back at these photos, is of being less heavy.  Because of the medications I'm on, and my lack of activity over such a long period of time, my metabolism is at an all time low, and my weight, at an all time high.  I've never been this big before, I think women of all shapes and sizes are beautiful, but due the extra pounds I'm carrying are really affecting me, affecting me physically.  I can't walk more than a block or two before I have extreme lower back pain.  This is going to make it pretty challenging to get back into shape, which I need to do, because my health is suffering.  Not just the aches and pains bother me, but it's harder to maneuver around my own body and it's frustrating.

So I'm going back to kickboxing, which is going to be terribly horribly gruelingly challenging because I get exhausted just changing my clothes or taking a shower.  Never mind a high belt level kickboxing class.  However the dojo has been forewarned of my extreme decline in physical ability so I hope it's not going to be too daunting to climb back up to some semblance of health.  

This is me now (well 5 minutes ago, snapped on the cam), and the other thing I'm feeling that's driving me a little batty is my hair, It has to go.

I want my shaved smooth head back!

I'm still trying to decide exactly when, and co-ordinate it.  I'm planning on trying to have a big photo shoot in the salon, with Wolfe, and another man, and with Aya, Aya won't be shaving her head that day, but she'll be shaving mine, than her and I will shave Wolfe, and give the other man a mohawk.

I think it will pretty interesting... At the very least it's going to be labour intensive, speaking of labour intensive, I'm going to have a real workout ahead of me topping two subs at the party on Saturday night!  Since I get tired out so easily.  Not to mention, I'm not sure which of my Domme clothes fit.  I know my black PVC dress is out of the question.

It was pretty snug the last time I wore it, and that was a number of pounds ago now.. erp! 

Damn, Wolfe is masturbating at the computer behind me, and it's making it hard to concentrate.  Sexy noises.

I'm really looking forward to the weekend. Forgot to call the Spa off the drive to check if I could make a pedicure appointment though.  Have to make sure I remember to do that tomorrow.

Sometimes I wish technology was up to date enough that you could have a little computer in your head, and it would have calendar reminders in it.  I need brain augmentation!  

Well, I'm all of a sudden very sleepy and very woozy.  I'm off to bed.

Leila

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