January 22nd - Masks
Sometimes, the masks we wear, are very subtle, like the play of light on my face from the monitor when I snapped this picture. The layers we apply to ourselves when we go out into the world, so light and so airy, we're not even aware of their application, they're simply environmental responses, automatic.
The faces we present to the world; kind, happy, professional, considerate, tough, strong, independent... not to say that these things aren't 'real'. Sometimes, though, it's subtle, what is a 'mask', a role, something a little -less- real slipped over top of something more genuine to disguise it.
Some masks are good, socially appropriate, work well for us, we know we've got it on, likely the people we're interacting with are aware of it as well, an agreed upon convention to present a particular face of things.
Other masks we use to distance ourselves and others from our true self, and our true feelings. On the contrary, we can use a mask, or role, to explore different aspects of ourselves and our feelings.
Sometimes, I feel, it's hard to know where the real is under the role.
but usually, it isn't a problem, just an awareness, an exploration, and a wonder, at how the nature of personality is constructed, learned, and evolves throughout our lives, as we interact and explore the world in which we live, forming beliefs and expectations, attitudes... and appearances.
I had a wonderful weekend...
Yesterday, we did some great photo shoots at Princess's place, a webmistress friend of mine. and I'll have several new galleries to go up soon... here's some previews.. <smile>
I did a series in this blonde wig, fluffed up a little retro behind a leopard print headband, rolling around on the bed in my 50's lace retro robe and thong, lightly masturbating... building myself up for my exhibitionistic photo shoot afternoon.
I then did a few series with a strap on dildo... sadly without a partner! <sigh>
I did one series without a wig, with my short
butch hair, playing with the dildo, and seriously
wishing I did have a partner... girl, or boy,
dildo's are a good thing!
I'm in love with Princess's zebra print cushion
I'd buy a few myself, but I don't think they'll
work with my decor.. <pout>
I loved the strap on, and didn't want to take it off, so we did another photo shoot with me back in my long blonde wig with the dildo on...
So that was my sunday, photo's all day, then Ty and bi-boy over for a very brief dinner, I made sushi, of a sort. Kind of fusion style tekka & sake donburi.
For people who are into food details, I used jasmine long grain rice instead of traditional sushi rice, and I browned it raw over high heat in oil and brown sugar, then added the water and green tea and cooked it. Once it was done I seasoned it with aged rice vinegar, brown sugar and salt, for a slightly different sushi rice. Then on plates I formed it into a little platform and layered raw tuna and raw salmon on top and a little pile of tobiko (flying fish roe), with a vinegared mayo-wasabi sauce. Then as a side dish, I served very lightly heat wilted soy bean sprouts (similar to sweat pea greens) with japanese ginger, soy and vinegar dressing, tossed with yellow peppers and nectarines. Some gari (pickled ginger) and slices of fresh guava on the side.We we're all a bit frazzled though from the weekend rush, so it really was a brief dinner, literally a one hour visit over dinner with some idle chit chat, and then parting ways. I have to admit I was happy to have some downtime shortly after soaking in a very hot bath with loads of essential oils, and then some quality mutual nibbling with/on Wolfe.
Saturday night Wolfe and I had a really good night, we went to a local comedy dinner club, had a couple of drinks, shared some natchos and laughed and laughed and laughed... and laughed and laughed. I love live comedy, and I always admire people who can make a living doing it. There's nothing like laughing and feeling yourself bubbling over from the inside with pure joy. Wolfe and I had plenty of time to sit and chat and catch up before the show over dinner, and a bit between sets. It was definitely quality time.
Saturday day, was a very relaxed and mellow down time day for me, as Friday night, I was out dancing till the wee smalls. I went out with Butterfly to a local grrrls event, Fly Girl, at a Dance club in town, the lava lounge. Mostly all girls, some boys, lots of lovely dikes, yummy yummy yummy... <droooool>
I danced and danced and danced.. lots of happy gyrations.I am definitely, going to do that again.
Hopefully regularly, since it's friday nights ongoing. What a way to get your cardio workout!
This thursday I'm going to be going to the local webmistresses meet... looking forward to that, wondering if I'll meet any local folx who visit my web site? If you're going to go, please email me and let me know!
Okay, enough of that, going to dash, I haven't had a chance to shower since kickboxing tonight, and I'm starting to feel a bit too ripe!
XO
Katt