November 16th
Black Lace...
Having a quiet evening after a quiet day. Though a nicer evening than day.
I woke up this morning with my menses in full swing. Cramps, and then later nauseous, cold, shivery, and other symptoms... I was not a happy camper. Cancelled my plans to teach kickboxing tonight, and spent a lot of time in bed or in the bath today. I think I was having some flu symptoms as well, from the bug I've been fighting off and on all week... I'm hoping that the worst of it is over with.
Over all feeling pretty good tonight... I was finally sitting and playing in front of the camera late this eve after being at home and reclusive all day. Just before Wolfe came home from work, feeling better, sexy.. slipped on a black sheer robe trimmed in lace and primped for the cam. No one watching except for bi-boy at home. Sitting so quietly in icq,
I had figured he probably wasn't watching... though found out after I was done taking captures that he was. It's funny, because I can be shy with people I know and love watching sometimes, it can be easier being sexy for strangers...
I
was happy to have Wolfe arriving home shortly
after I had started taking cam snaps, as I don't often
get him in a lot of my cam captures. He's not
usually home when I'm playing on cam, and when
he is, he's often feeling reclusive and not wanting
to be on the cam.
But my
favorite pictures are always of the two of us
together. I'd like to start taking some of just him soon. As well as
some of him and bi-boy together.
I love the shape and lines of men's bodies... And I love
making images with the camera.
Maybe my web site would do better as a business if I wasn't as focused on being creative and was more focused on making 'porn'.. but I'm not. I must admit I put most of my effort into playing with my web cam with artsy kinds of images, and in writing in my journal. I guess doing my own thing is more important to me than covering the costs sometimes.
I suppose it's an odd kind of integrity...
But there you have it... it's what I do.
It's like a little documentation of bits and pieces of my life.Though sometimes it reflects an idealized version of reality, the pictures anyways. All my emotional whining in here probably makes things seem worse than they are.. Maybe between the two it balances out... <laugh>
The pics don't show that I have cramps, that Wolfe has a headache.. that this was five minutes of hello, I love you, lets have a quick sexy cuddle. A moment later Wolfe had his shirt on again, was making KD in the kitchen, and I'm typing away at my journal here.. wondering hmmmm, I wonder when I get sex next?.. Please please let the headache go away soon :)
Ah well... At least I got a fair bit of laundry done today, between my recuperative periods of 'taking to my bed'.
I had a really really amazing night last night, just hanging out with Ty and bi-boy, just cuddling and connecting. I'm starting to feel again like I did before we had our big communication blow out, coming close to that level of original safety and connectedness I had back then. It makes me hopeful, and fills me with warm loving feelings. It just feels so right, when we're all together. Such a hard thing to explain... that energy. Feel very very happy, and it has an erotic quality, but that's not it, it's about so much more. It's like the volume of love circulating in the room becomes palpable.. it's heavy in the air, and it makes your heart light. Overcome with simple joy, just to be sharing space.
XOX
Katt
