November 1st - November already?!
I can't believe it's a whole new month again. Where does time go? I'm happy that I'm going back to assistant instructing at the dojo this month, starting tomorrow night actually. It's a killer workout, doing the warm up for several classes in a row. I'm looking forward to it. I can almost feel that delicious muscle ache and fatigue right now.. oh never mind, I am feeling it, that's from my regular class last Monday! I already have more energy just thinking about it. If I didn't work most evenings I could teach two nights a week, but alas, that's not possible.
I am so looking forward to this weekend. I usually work both Saturday and Sunday, early in the morning onward, but I have this Sunday off, and I have a party to go to Saturday night! I love going to parties put on by people who go to the Polyamoury discussion group/email list I belong to, because most everyone at the party is of the highly open minded variety. It's usually a good group of intelligent, inviting, people. The fact that people flirt across genders , singly or in small groups, is an added bonus. So it's social butterfly weekend. Poly discussion meet is on the Friday night, party is on the Saturday night, and Sunday, I have off to recuperate in bliss. Happy weekend.
My sweeties come back from Hawaii today... Ty and bi-boy. I'm looking forward to reconnecting again once they've recuperated from jet lag and unpacking and that type of thing. Not in too much of a rush to push back into the new relationship fray of things. I think the break with them away was very well timed on the part of the universe, lovely coincidence, which allowed me to really get a handle on myself, my relationship boundaries and personal values boundaries. I think like many people do, I look too much at potentials, at the 'what ifs' and either get swept away by my dreams and desires, or my fears and worries, rather than really look at what is, and live from that place. I think that one of the most important things in life is not basing relationships on the expectations or hopes that people will change parts of who they are. I think acknowledging the potential for growth in others is important and healthy and supportive, but you shouldn't make life plans or live a relationship style based on who you think someone may come to be, but on who they are. Otherwise you devalue everyone in the process. Better to love unconditionally, how someone is at the moment, within the limitations of that, and keeping it real, even if it means looking like less than what you would have dreamed for. Well, I've centered myself again in the here and now, at who I am, who I perceive them to be, and what is realistic, healthy, in concordance with who and what I am... not that it's cut and dry, I don't live in a black and white world, lots of flexibility there, but am not jumping ahead of myself quite so much. I hope it brings better balance to everyone.
Have to run, off to the Dr's... STD test results today, not that I expect any bad news... I've been a good girl. I just like to keep in the know. Then rushing from the Dr's to work, from work to kickboxing, then back into the big red bed... purrrrrrrr...
November.. already.
XOX
Katt