October 31st - Night of Power
All
Hallows... What is sacred is what we make it. What holds power is what
we give it.
Halloween is a night of power because people direct their energy there.
An interesting evening. Decadent indulgence. Children run around
in archetypal costumes expressing their inner selves, their dreams, their
fears. They indulge in copious amounts of sugary junk. I love Halloween...
if you look at it, in terms of what is practiced by the masses, it's about
symbolic expression of deep inner stuff combined with hedonistic
indulgence. What a holiday. I know there are all kinds of older
traditions... Pagan roots. Different takes on the day, and the day
after... depending on a persons spiritual trad. Respects to our dead,
among other things.
I'm a person of eclectic spirituality, and I find it interesting, how people
deal with powerful days, symbolic markers, whether in a spiritual or a secular
sense. Myself, I do what feels right. And that can vary
considerably... Ritual formed from the spontaneity of my spirit.
Sometimes it takes a form, and sometimes it doesn't.
Black
Katt
Witch Katt
Sabbath Katt
Sin Katt
One of my very first poems.. I was 13 when I wrote it. I'm sure I wrote more before it, but earliest I memorized (not a lot of lines to learn). Katt is a name I've used for myself for many many years. Not my given name, but a name that I associate with on an archetypal level. It was the name I used when I first started to navigate the internet, well, pre-internet on the old BBS systems. When I met Wolfe, he new me first as Katt, just as I knew him first, as Wolfe. Sometimes the names we give ourselves, are as true, or truer, than the names we've born since our birth. I've gone dressed many Halloweens, child and adult as a black cat, or a witch.. those are my most common costume choices. If I dress up at all.
I play dress up regularly... In some ways, aren't we always in costume?...
Yesterday, was modeling my new black leather with my sweet NY paramour, and leather benefactor. Also wearing my long blonde wig.
I really enjoy the freedom to play with different aspects of myself on a regular basis. Though still not to the level that I would like to. Societal constraints do get in the way. I used to dream about living with a group of like minded people, and having a bit of property, and being able to live a lot more of our archetypal selves. Dress up, role play, act out, really do what you wish to do in the moment and explore that in interaction with other people doing the same. Want to dress in a medieval gown, dress in one, want to walk around on all fours and be a dog, be one, want to be a baby, be one, want to encounter someone else who is spontaneously acting out and join into their fantasy. Want to live poetry instead of just write it... want to break down some of the barriers. Want to stay nude for a week. Want to see what develops with a little more chaos and a little less order. It's a nice fantasy... odds are I won't find collaborators I'm compatible with... <smile> And I won't start a cult.. bad karma. <laugh>... I'm into equals, not into controlling others. Though the amount of mail I get from 'sheep' looking for shepards is a little frightening at times. If I won the lottery, I'd set it all up myself, and then people could just come into the insanity for occasional forays... Now what a bed and breakfast that would make...
Woke
up feeling a little under the weather today, hope I'm not coming down with
anything, though I'm feeling much better now. Also, I'm totally mid
cycle, not menstruating, and I had blood this morning, which is a first for
me. Not too concerned about it, I know spotting is usually totally
harmless, and unrelated to illness, and I'm inclined to take it as some kind
of symbolic Halloween thing... After all, it is a night of power.
That's enough from me... off to play
XOX
Katt