October 4th - Walking and sitting
Well
I went for a beautiful walk last night.. I love to walk at
night. Along two of Vancouver's most alive streets, Commercial Drive,
and then down Hastings. It was phenomenally centering for
me. I was doing a lot of thinking last night, about
the nature of spirituality, self, interpersonal dynamics, as I walked. I
find walking at night very meditative, very relaxing, and if you do it long
enough, for me, I get a lovely endorphin buzz floating me, which is enough to
ignore any minor aches and pains I may get.
Besides being occasionally cruised for smokes, sex, or drugs.. people trying to alternately sell or buy... it was pretty much a place of solitude.. but the solitude where you feel profoundly connected to everything around you.
I had a nod and a smile for everyone.. and mostly for myself.
Feeling like that again tonight... still, connected, calm. Just spent a few moments in meditation. Sometimes when I sit zazen and meditate.. I get this rocking thing that happens up from the center of my body, moving through my body, up out of my body.. kundalini serpent rising, and swaying. my whole torso gently rocks back and forth and I feel like I'm just moving in time with some kind of cosmic heartbeat.. I totally love that sensation.
So I'm writing and I'm very very mellow.
You know all those galleries of great pics I was mentioning from my last shave.. I haven't touched them, have a load of work to do on them before I can put them up, but right now have been so much in a personally contemplative head space that I don't have the desire to that kind of concentrative work effort.. so my dear members, you are unfortunately going to have to wait a bit longer for the pictures to arrive.
You see some people have a work ethic.. and well, I do have one, but it's somewhere in line in a hierarchy of ethics.. and way above my work ethic.. is my love ethic, and my spirituality ethic.. <smile>.. so interpersonal relationships.. my own connectedness.. all of that often comes first for me. Convention be damned. <smile>
So... lately, given the space I'm in with developing new and important relationships to me, potentially life changing stuff. I ask myself.. what could be more important.. and my answer is not a whole fuck of a lot.. to me anyways. So there you go.. naughty pics will have to wait. Be patient with me! <kiss>
There's a lot of noise in the world now.. so I'm sitting very still, and listening.
Live in love..
XO
Katt