My ideal:
Wake up 7am -
meditate, green tea, short jog or power walk or skip rope (small cardio
session to wake up my body) stretch out, vitamins, fruit and soy shake with
protein powder for breakie. (or some carb protein balanced light meal).
Take my time in the morning, connect with myself, center for the day...
9 am to noon -
work on the website. (healthy snack.. more tea, lots of water.. happy happy)
noon - healthy
lunch
1pm - 5pm - see
clients for counseling sessions
5 - light Dinner
6 - 9pm
train and teach in the dojo.
shower, sex, sex,
meditation... sleep... purrrrrrrrrrrrrr
And well, each day
would look different, a different balance of training and counseling hours and
website hours.. I like variety, and I wouldn't train every day, 3 or 4 days of
the week is good for me. Though I'd like to start every day the same...
What my day really
looks like is totally different... on mornings I work I have to get up early
and I wake up at the last possible moment, I never make time for breakfast,
never mind a mediation or work out in the morning... and I usually skip
vitamins and even water... It's usually a few hours into my day before I
manage to put something into me... and I know that's not good, probably part
of my lethargy is simply not having good enough hydration. And...
I spend a lot of down time, watching tv, lounging... which I really really
feel is a total waste of my time. I'd like to limit TV time to about 5
hours a week max.. I do enjoy it, I just don't want it to replace doing things
that I would really rather do.
I also want a day
or two off in the week to be with loved ones, Wolfe, friends, to be social,
dine, wine, and be physical, be in nature, play...
So what I wonder,
is why do I punish myself by neglecting what are really some of my basic needs
for healthy nourishment, enough water, enough nutrients, enough physical
activity?... enough reflection. Why is there a disparity between
my ideal and my real situation?... I feel like on some level that it is a kind
of self punishment, that for some reason I choose to hold myself back from
letting into my life my full potential for living.
Why do I keep
making promises to myself that I don't keep?
We've met some new
people, that I feel like I'm courting, that I think are really amazing, and I
feel I have a connection with, similar values, ideals.. ways of looking at the
world. People that could potentially be spiritual kin, that I would
welcome in my life for the long haul, and I think it's having me stand back
and take another hard look at myself, at what I might bring into a
relationship. How I can best grow from where I am now, and encourage
health and growth in myself as well as my relationships. When
meeting with prospective soul mates.. one is inclined to feel.. hey, for everyone's
benefit, time to get my shit together. If I might be taking baby
steps towards sharing love with other people, and exploring the bounds of that
love, I need to start with my ability to love myself, and know those bounds,
and open up from the inside first. Regardless, I owe it to myself, no
matter what happens in my relationships around me, to start living as I
should.
you too eh?
...we all need to
wake up now.
Life's alarm clock
is ringing. Don't hit the snooze button.
Live in love
Katt
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e-mail me!
Well,
I feel like I've been incredibly lazy lately... or something.
I know a lot of it recently are little physical
health things, but even before that, I've noticed a shift in my energy.
A lot of it I'm sure is connected to missing workouts at the dojo. I've
only been averaging about one kickboxing class a week. Last year this
time I was consistently training 3 times a week and warming up a couple of
classes
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I
know what it is I need to do, and how it is I want to live my life, and one
wonders what it is that holds me back. Even little things... like not
drinking enough water during the course of the day, or not taking my
vitamins... and not looking into finding a way to hang up my shingle and
start private practice as a therapist now that I've finished
my MA in counseling psych... many months ago now. I know that I would
feel a lot more complete, a lot healthier,