I’m struggling right now. I have to be honest. The pain doesn’t let up, the exhaustion doesn’t let up, life stressors don’t let up…

I keep focusing, or trying, on all the things to be thankful for.

Some days, it’s hard to feel like anything I am, or anything I do, makes any real difference in the world.

That the world really is mostly pain and suffering…

So I think of the people I love, and their hearts, as something to be thankful for.

But with depression, that brings fear… for I feel responsibility for those hearts too, and fear… anxiety, builds more depression.

I’m cycling down, and I don’t know how to get back up again.