Bijou died in the night, Wolfe was with her when she passed. We did our very best for her. We knew even with the puppy formula, antibiotics, treating the colic, with what the vet had said, it was a big gamble trying to keep her alive. It’s not unusual for a large litter of puppies [...]

Is struggling. She now looks terribly bloated and is crying constantly, we think she has colic and Wolfe has driven off to the drugstore to buy some simethicone to try to settle her poor tummy. The feeding with the puppylac formula and/or the antibiotics is not agreeing with her. Either that or it’s a symptom [...]

Luna’s puppies we’re born 2 days ago, on the 27th of March. 7 beautiful pups. She had the first two while Wolfe was still at work and I was alone with her, she went into labour fast, and moved through to delivering quickly. We thought we would have time for Wolfe to get home before [...]

If you’re wondering what it’s like to have a disease/disorder/disability where your personal ‘resources’ are limited. This definitely explains one facet of what it’s like to have fibro. I’ve talked a lot about pain, and weakness, but not a lot about how it effects how I move through the world. Other than saying, gee, I [...]

Pain is turning me into a bitch.
Making me short tempered, angry.
I don’t want to lose control of something else.
I want to be able to control my temper.
It hasn’t been an issue in many many years.
I’m scared the bitch is going to make me a bitch.
I hurt, I get confused, I find myself lashing out.
My brain [...]

Well, I’ve been having a really bad flare up that’s been ongoing since the night I was in emergency a couple of weeks ago now. For a while I just kind of gave up to the pain and the fatigue and the overwhelming barrage of symptoms. I comforted myself with crappy junk food that was [...]

Approx 9+ days from now…

Luna, aka Balloona, aka Jabba the Pugg.

I’m blogging my pain, because I need to try to ‘process’ it somehow, have some semblance of control over something that has so much control over me.
I woke up this morning in pain. Pain is my alarm clock. I fight it in the mornings, trying to use some form of mental willpower as a snooze [...]

“Words have the power to both destroy and heal. When words are both true and kind, they can change our world.” ~ Buddha.
“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love
will have the final word in reality.
This is why right, temporarily defeated,
is stronger than evil triumphant.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr.
“I offer you peace. I offer [...]

Yup, you read right, I’ve been suffering with chronic constipation for over a year. Yes I poop. But not without ‘assistance’. Over time I’ve had to take larger and larger amounts of lactulose in order to have a movement. Lactulose is a product that is a stool softener and brings water into the bowels. It’s [...]

I have a weakness of the heart. Toxic relationships with women.
I find it so hard to cope with women that are catty, or cruel. Particularly strong powerful women that are so. Worse of all is when they are nice to your face, and mean behind your back. It brings up stuff from childhood, from school, [...]

“In March, July, October, May
The Ides fall on the fifteenth day
The Nones the seventh; all besides
Have two days less for Nones and Ides.”
 
Well there’s fun planned for this 15th of March, probably too much planned. We’re bringing stuff over to the neighbours driveway early in the morning on Saturday to garage sale with them till [...]

This journal entry started with one letter, one letter holds little meaning, it became a word, with greater meaning, which in turn became part of a sentence with an even larger meaning. This sentence will become part of a larger paragraph, then a set of paragraphs that explore a larger concept or concepts. Everything in [...]