There’s a new day for awareness in Canada, around the problem of bullying. Today, on Feb. 27th people are encouraged to wear pink to voice their awareness of the problem of bullying.  Most of us have some personal experience with bullying. In childhood those examples and memories of bullies and their actions are probably clear [...]

When your neck becomes too sore and weary
to hold your heavy head
lay your head down
When the world becomes
thick and tight around you
allow it’s weary embrace
If your cup is too heavy to lift
drink from the stillness
drink from the pain
If your body
struggles and strains
in this stillness in this pain
lay your head down

Fallen Orchid
grown constrained
cultivated
in highly controlled conditions
Overlooked
the masses preferring
the  understood cliché of red roses
or even simple daisies
Yet perservering
strong stalked
thick leaved
and heavy blossomed
found
then cherished
and loved
Then one day
for reasons unknown
the petals crumple and fall
It’s just the cycle
life
health
growth
and crumpled petals falling
Too meek now
finery lost
just a small naked leaf
and bound stem
I don’t know how
to make you
bloom again

So I’m still recuperating from my massive flare up on Friday that sent me to emerge.  I had a belly dancing class on Monday night and managed to do most of the class, but had to sit out the last 15 minutes as my body was starting to get too sore and awkward. It was [...]

Last night I became unable to manage the building pain in my body and had to head to emergency to get help.  I could barely walk or move my body was so weak and so filled with pain. Wolfe helped navigate me into clothes and out to the car. The clothes were hell.
During a flare [...]

Yesterday was a great day chocolate and flowers and love wise, and not such a great day pain and symptom wise.
Unfortunately my bad spells usually last a few days or so at a time, building to a peak in the middle.
Yesterday was bad, today is worse. I could barely sleep last night, and I’ve woken [...]

Wolfe came home with a bouquet that had a ginger blossom in it and some Calla lilies all red and white. My favorite flowers, he had to special order them in advance. That and a pound of chocolate covered cherries from the British Sweet Shop. Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I’m too tired and sore for us to go out [...]

I don’t usually really celebrate Valentines, the anniversary of when Wolfe and I met is Feb 2nd, and we usually celebrate that, and Valentines often slips by mostly un-noticed.
It’s the little daily gestures of love that are most important to me regardless. For instance hot tea waiting for me in the mornings. Wolfe gets up [...]

There are so many things going on in my life right now, though I haven’t really been writing about any of them… so In no particular order.
I had an amazing dungeon party last Saturday here in the house. We were running them last year, 2 a month, but when I started to get really ill [...]