Well, last season it was the uterus that was voted out of the house, the joy of my hysterectomy. This season, it looks like the thyroid is getting the boot out. I feel craptacular.

First it was some blood tests showing low thyroid, then normal blood test, then low again.. so Dr. ordered an ultrasound of my thyroid, and I have a couple of little nodules, likely no biggie, a lot of people have them, usually benign. So, I’m scheduled for some radiography tests in Aug. for more info on what those nodules are made of.

Then, I had a bladder infection that wouldn’t go away, in hindsight, recurrent, or resistant infection is one of the symptoms of hypothyroidism (check).

So are a whole slew of other fun symptoms which have been building up on me with alarming rapidity. Right now, I feel like total crap. I’m sore everywhere, muscles ache, hurt, cramp. Joints hurt. pain in my hands and feet. Swollen face and throat. Sore throat. constipated. my skin is so dry and flakey, sucking up the oil. I’m exhausted beyond exhaustion. I’m tired, depressed, I get confused, irritable. I’m cold. I get moments of dizziness and nausea. My eyes are sensitive, lights are too bright. I feel unbelievably horrid.

I’d go to emerg, but I’m sure they’re not going to do anything for me. I see my family dr. on teusday, and the meantime, I’m medicating the pain with oxycodon, eating ice cream for my sore throat, playing a lot of scrabble on face book, and just trying to pass the time under a pile of blankets. Also trying to let the mood swings and down feelings bounce away, telling myself, it’s biology, it’s all about the chemical havoc of a disfunctional thyroid, let it go, it will get fixed, soonish, be patient. eat some more ice cream, play some scrabble, have a hot bath, a little cry. Not much longer now… suck it up princess.

But shit, seriously, enough with the health issues. I’d like to take a hiatus from this particular reality show of Leila’s ongoing organ failures. As soon as I start to heal from one thing, another thing is going. Is this what happens as we get older? I need a break, want some healthy time soon please.