Things
Things that suck
- My sleep cycle got muckled up, not enough sleep, back for a nap, too much sleep, I don’t know. Feel stoned.
- Not enough income. Money is low in the incoming flow.
- Too many expenses. Costs are too high right now.
- Not enough website clients. business is slumping, despite attempts to drum it up.
- I seem emotionally incapable of taking on add on work like pro-D sessions right now.
- I have guilt over my inability to earn more income.
- I’m dehydrated. I’m too stupid to make tea or pour water.
- I think Wolfe is stressed.
- My nipple piercings need cleaning.
- I’m lazy and depressed.
- My medication kills my sex drive, and when I have drive, impedes my ability to reach orgasm.
- I often feel lost and/or paralyzed.
- I have no houseboy, I tried to have one, I don’t think it ever really happened. I had something, tentative, it’s gone now.
- Sometimes I don’t know when to quit, most of the time, I don’t know how to start.
- I’m neurotic and self-obsessed.
- I have too many pets.
- I fall in love easily and hard. Usually with those I love I fall into a cycle of giving till it hurts, and not receiving in balance.
- I have lots of mosquito bites, I’m itchy.
- I’m focusing on the negatives.
Things that rock
- I have a beautiful relationship with a man that loves me deeply and completely.
- I have a beautiful home in a beautiful city in a beautiful country, without hunger, poverty, or war.
- I’m alive, I have the ability to feel, love, give, breathe, be.
- I’m surrounded by life, by good people, by opportunities for growth, health, love, and well being.
- I have choices, about how to live, and how to see the world.
- I can count my blessings.
This was supposed to cheer me up.. fuck it, I still feel stoned, neurotic, depressed, dehydrated, and worred about monies… grrrr. Stupid. Try again Leila, keep counting your blessings, stop feeling sorry for yourself, and if you can’t do that, move on, give it some time, try again. Things don’t always work out the way you’d like them to. That’s life. Sometimes you count your blessings, and you still feel like you’re having a crappy day.