Someone I was talking with the other day in regards to a person who had treated me poorly in public, commented to me that this person who had been rude and threatening towards me didn’t deserve or need an apology, or respect or kindness from me in this context.  For me, giving someone an apology, [...]

Still feeling horrible, went to see the Dr. today, he did a swab culture of my throat, ordered more blood tests to do tomorrow after fasting, and a chest x-ray. Brought up the possibility it may be mono, even though I’ve had that before as a teen.  Who knows, previous tests have ruled out a [...]

Okay, whatever is going on with me health wise is not conveniently fitting into any of the diagnostic boxes that have so far presented themselves. Even though I have all the symptoms of severe hypothyroidism, the blood tests came back… normal. I was feeling so crappy today, that Wolfe insisted I go back to emerge, [...]

Well, last season it was the uterus that was voted out of the house, the joy of my hysterectomy. This season, it looks like the thyroid is getting the boot out. I feel craptacular.
First it was some blood tests showing low thyroid, then normal blood test, then low again.. so Dr. ordered an ultrasound of [...]

I’m not satanist, but in general, I like these guys… “Satanism condones any type of sexual activity which properly satisfies your individual desires–be it heterosexual, homosexual, bisexual, or even asexual, if you choose. Satanism also sanctions any fetish or deviation which will enhance your sex-life, so long as it involves no one who does not [...]

Thyroid. Well, my Dr. checked my thyroid functioning, and it was a little low, on the hypo side. So he scheduled me in for more blood work, and for an ultrasound. The results of the second blood work came back normal. Which is the first thing he told me, and then said, which is funny, [...]

Well, I’ve been jonesing for some jonesing.  Ever since I’ve been medicated for my depression, many years now, my libido has been severely impaired. Since I used to want sex frequently, well to be honest ‘all the time’,  in the pre-depression years, this lack of interest is a change from my ‘normal’ state of sexual [...]

Things that suck
- My sleep cycle got muckled up, not enough sleep, back for a nap, too much sleep, I don’t know. Feel stoned.
- Not enough income. Money is low in the incoming flow.
- Too many expenses. Costs are too high right now.
- Not enough website clients. business is slumping, despite attempts to drum it [...]

I’ve been sucked into face book… feel free to hunt me down there, and preferably join my zombie army… I’m listed under my legal name, Leila Raven.