Comments on: A little better http://www.thepillowbook.com/2005/12/15/a-little-better/ Mon, 1 Dec 2008 19:48:10 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.5.1 By: feralkittycat http://www.thepillowbook.com/2005/12/15/a-little-better/#comment-214 feralkittycat Sat, 17 Dec 2005 04:06:06 +0000 http://www.thepillowbook.com/?p=134#comment-214 i almost did ect back in 2001... i had voluntarily gone into a psych unit - i was actually in my hospital room at usc university hospital putting my stuff away and they told me they were going to take away my cds and photos of my cat cos i might kill myself with them... something inside me snapped and i said "forget it i want to go home"... my parents took me home immediately... my mom didn't want me on another lockdown ward anyway... she was happy i said no... on the other hand it took me soooooo long to pull myself out of the depression i was in then... i wanted so much to find a day program where i could do ect but none of the ones my insurance company would go for in LA would do it... i had to sign myself in for a stay and i didn't want to do it that way... everything i've read about ect has been really positive and i talked to several people who have had it and say it saved their lives... i know they say that it can fuck around with your memory but honestly, my memory is so fucking destroyed from the years of psych med cocktails that i'm sure it's not that much worse... (don't know what your experience there is) don't be scared of the dayprogram, katt... you will go home every night to your loving husband who will take good care of you... and if you do one ect and you decide you don't like it you don't have to do anymore... but maybe try it... i know if/when i ever fall down my black spiral again i will strongly consider it... anything is better than not even having the energy or the enthusiasm to kill myself... staring at the walls and just wishing i could go to sleep and not wake up... xoxoxoxoxoxxo i almost did ect back in 2001… i had voluntarily gone into a psych unit - i was actually in my hospital room at usc university hospital putting my stuff away and they told me they were going to take away my cds and photos of my cat cos i might kill myself with them… something inside me snapped and i said “forget it i want to go home”… my parents took me home immediately… my mom didn’t want me on another lockdown ward anyway… she was happy i said no… on the other hand it took me soooooo long to pull myself out of the depression i was in then… i wanted so much to find a day program where i could do ect but none of the ones my insurance company would go for in LA would do it… i had to sign myself in for a stay and i didn’t want to do it that way…

everything i’ve read about ect has been really positive and i talked to several people who have had it and say it saved their lives… i know they say that it can fuck around with your memory but honestly, my memory is so fucking destroyed from the years of psych med cocktails that i’m sure it’s not that much worse… (don’t know what your experience there is)

don’t be scared of the dayprogram, katt… you will go home every night to your loving husband who will take good care of you… and if you do one ect and you decide you don’t like it you don’t have to do anymore… but maybe try it… i know if/when i ever fall down my black spiral again i will strongly consider it… anything is better than not even having the energy or the enthusiasm to kill myself… staring at the walls and just wishing i could go to sleep and not wake up…

xoxoxoxoxoxxo

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