All time high?
More like all time low. Stepped on the scale today and I’ve never weighed more. I’ve hit 270 lbs. I’m a bit ticked off with myself, though I had the feeling from what I’ ve been seeing in the mirror that I’ve been gaining. I also had my cholesterol recently checked and it’s too high too. So, time to try to make some changes again.
It’s an extra hard battle for me, 4 of the medications I have to take for my depression cause weight gain, they slow metabolism, make me overheat easily, cause me to crave carbohydrates, and I always feel hungry. It’s not just an excuse, for some reason people understand that street drugs can influence appetite and weight, for instance no one argues that speed causes people to lose, or that pot causes the munchies. But when I mention to some the role all my meds take, I can see that little shift of skepticism flit across their features. Especially people that didn’t know me before, was I big before the meds, yes, but I was big and strong, a lot of muscle, 200 lbs of kick boxer. Now, I’m dumpling out. I get winded walking up a flight of stairs, I get tired walking around a city block, I break a sweat at the drop of a hat. What was once easy and taken forgranted now looms as a formidable task. How do I get back to the strong fit person, the person I could see muscle definition on. Where is she?
So, Wolfe is off to the grocery store as I type this. I couldn’t bring myself to go along, right now I’m going to focus on diet first, and then try and bring excersize into it. I don’t want to change everything too fast, that’s a recipe for feeling totally overwhelmed. I’ve done some research, and decided with my various health problems, that I’m going to try an alkaline diet plan, to put my body into pH balance. It’s basically going to focus on a lot of healthy fresh fruit and veggies, potatoes and brown rice and raw oats for starches, and restricting protien to lean chicken, fish, tofu and eggs. Drinking iced green tea with lime and baking soda to try to help offset the state of high acidity my body is probably currently in. Switching off of regular salt to sea salt and soy sauce. Also other little odds and ends changes.
At least I lost a little weight yesterday, shaved more hair of my head, just the back half of my mohawk, now when I wear it down, it looks like a very short bob, instead of a mullet!
Enough out of me.
August 19th, 2005 at 9:23 pm
All the best to you both.
I know, I know sez I on the weight thing. I have a change of shirt in the car and I am marking a pocket calendar. Tomorrow, drive from work to the park at Tujunga/Magnolia. Walk 40-45 minutes.
1 day 1 change at a time.
Drew, drew a lot yesterday which is good. Sweet dreams!!
August 22nd, 2005 at 8:11 pm
I weighed about 280 at one point and have lost about 60 lbs. I too have that solid look, though, so I look like I weigh less than I do, thank goodness.
I was on antidepressants and they pounded me out a bit. Instead of worrying so much about diet, because that’ll stress you more and make you feel more depressed, worry about exercising first.
If you start exercising — like I did, I exercised and ate what I wanted — then it’ll get you pumped, slowly but surely, and after about 3 weeks of doing it regularly, your mood will also improve, you’ll notice the changes starting to come, and as you’re getting those frustrations out of you, you’ll naturally start to eat a little less.
Definitely, deal with the fitness first and the rest will follow.
When you start exercising, though, increase your calcium intake to help prevent your muscles from getting too tired and also to help you sleep. If you’re suddenly doing a lot more, it can deplete your calcium and cause sleeping interruptions, as I learned the hard way.
Good luck with it. Hard, but you can do it. I still have lapses, but because I did it through exercise and just naturally began changing my diet without forcing it, I’ve kept the weight off. I’ve lost it SLOWLY over 18 months, but none of it has returned. Probably took 10-14 inches off, considering how a couple of my old jackets fit me now. (I threw out all the fat clothes — have no reference for it now.)
Anyhow, a topic close to home. I feel for you. It’s hard to deal with realizing you’ve ballooned up, but I think the exercise will do a lot for your depression, too. God knows it did for me.
Best of luck.
The Cunting Linguist.