Happy Valentines Day…

Katt Posted in General

I hate starting out each journal entry with something that basically says ‘shit… I haven’t written forever… oops!’ The problem is journalling is about talking to yourself, and I really haven’t been talking to myself much. I think being very depressed and suicidal has broken some trust. In some ways it’s splintered me into parts, parts that are very ill and want to die, or hide away, or just remain as numb and quiet as possible, and the part of me where that spark of life lives that wants to win back the me of previous pre-depression years, that part is what brings me here. Writing is communicating to myself, and I need to do more of it, need to rebuild that trust. Need to open doors into my psyche and my feelings, and not worry that if I do my entire world will come crumbling down.
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