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Thanks for the help! no seriously, I know I should, I’ve been trying to switch to watered down cranberry juice. Which I actually love quite a bit. Old habits are hard to change. There are so many things I know I should be doing to help with changing my own chemistry to help with the depression, good food, cut out processed foods, sugar, flour, aspartame, probably gluten in general as there seems to be an intolerance for it that runs in the family. On the other hand, these are all things I’m highly addicted to as well. It seems that you crave the things that fuel the depression, and find things contrary to it, very difficult to undertake, I know sleeping in a cave made of pillows and blankets on the bed well into the afternoon with breaks for diet cola and cereal are not really the daily choices I should be making.

On the other hand, getting washed, dressed, and eating healthy, and maybe even going out my front door, seem pretty insurmountable. I eat and drink what Wolfe puts in front of me, and sometimes whine and wail for craved unhealthy things. If he doesn’t feed me, I usually forget to eat, and get dehydrated to boot. Then I get into the land of weird wonky low sugar and dehydrated sleepy dream land, and don’t leave the bed at all.
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