I am touched by your note and your courage in the face of the depression you are experiencing. Your body is feeling the gap between your mental awareness and the cellular transformation that is taking place in your DNA in order to hold the enlightenment that you seek. When that gap is closed either by your work with a Guru or simply the slow process that you are currently slogging through, your experience of the enlightened state and the mundane state will be congruent. It is fear, a figment of the uncontrolled mind that convinces you that treading water is necessary. When you stop treading water, you will find that there is no need to tread water and in fact there is no water. You are safe, you are love, you are God. Only fear thinks otherwise. Be patient. You have been working at this for lifetimes. What is a few more minutes? Your depression is actually resistance and it shows that you are so close! You have been working on this for lifetimes. What difference do a few more minutes make?
Love
David

There is a deep connection between You and Your rebirthed offspring. The umbilical is one of heart and soul - a chain of love.

Recall my spirit tree? The one that i did the stained glass window from? All the roots are interwoven and interconnected as one. It is the branches above that are constantly diverging.

You and i are converging - we are the like the roots of the spirit tree. Without us, there can be no leaves, flowers and new seed.

The dark places where roots lie are the foundation of life.

We are here, together.

It is time - without expectation or premeditation, for me to surrender completely to You - as You are. i love You dearly and wish only to be chained by the umbilical of life that we share. You are a Worthy Goddess - You are golden light - You can never fail me. Our Love displaces our fear.

i kneel before You, Mistress Mommy Katt and give myself to You.

Please love me forever.