I’ve been thinking about spirtuality and personal growth. About the feeling of being connected to the universe, to the infinite ALL, the sense of awe of the numinous, and how that translates with being at my lowest lows. There are ways to connect to that sense of the interconnectedness of things, when you are in those dark places, but how does one get there when you’re hardly connected with yourself. The only way for it is for me to go into my emotional pain, and embrace the dark, and completeness of it, which is very hard to do, the depression coming out of the fear of all of me that hides down there in the dark. A lot of people think about getting that spiritual sense of awe and connectedness with the highest points, the blazing of the light, orgasms that send you to the stars and inside and outside of you and your partner(s), seeing the beauty of sunlight sparkling on water, the deep calm of meditation, feeling centered, feeling balanced. The truth is, we are still connected, still part of the movements of time, space, infinity, when we are at the lowest lows…
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