Was hospitalized again for my depression, for a few days, I’m back home now, but am still feeling REALLY hermit like, so I haven’t been answering calls or emails, sorry lovie ones. My mother hasn’t heard back from me, my daughter jOni hasn’t, I’m in that quiet recovery space. The reason I’m [...]

I’ve been thinking about spirtuality and personal growth. About the feeling of being connected to the universe, to the infinite ALL, the sense of awe of the numinous, and how that translates with being at my lowest lows. There are ways to connect to that sense of the interconnectedness of things, when you [...]

Definitely on a downslide, I slept about 20-23 hours, lots of dreaming, not really nightmares, but definitely dreams with stress in them, agitation dreams. Feeling really isolational, don’t want to leave the house, don’t really want to leave the bed. Not getting much enjoyment out of anything. Angry and sad and feeling [...]

The last few days have been a blur, not sure why, happens sometimes, partly my cold I suppose. I know I did get to go for lunch and shopping with jOni darling on thursday. Today is wednesday. I’ve been having fun being poly people with Wolfe and Tanuki, oh, and we did [...]