I went to the Vancouver BDSM munch last night with my baby t-girl jOni, which was very very nice. It was a really big turnout, and it’s nice to see familiar faces. One of our local greats in toy making, had a really yummy studded leather paddle, studded on one side, smooth on the other, that had metal housed cleverly inside. It was the ‘hardest’ leather paddle I’ve seen…

I might have bought it, but it didn’t have a price yet, as he had just made it, and the process of making this particular paddle turned out to be particularly laborious, so he would want to match a price that took into account all the labour he did put into it. He also had made a great pony play piece, bit with blinders, harness, reigns, also not yet priced. Probably a good thing, because I was sitting on cash as I had meant to go to my seamstress to pick up a whack of clothes that were in for repair or designed for me, and I usually pay her in cash, and well, no tax, under the table kind of thing. So I had dollars burning. However, I did come upon equally glorious treasure soon afterwards. One of the regular subby sweeties in town was there, amoung many others, and she had a number of fur items she was looking for homes for. I was interested in a muff and hat she had, but hadn’t seen them, when she snuck off with jOni, and jOni returned, bearing the hat and muff, and saying that the fur giving darling just wanted to sneak away quietly. I was stunned, and very happy. I understand her quiet dissapearance, you can tell, she’s that kind of subby, nervous about recieving thanks, awkard protocol, etc. But I am very thankful, and do want to let her know. I’m completely in love with my new blue fox fur muff, and mink hat! They match, the mink is a cross of black mink and white mink that produce a fur that looks a lot like the fox, though you can tell the difference by touch. I have no problem with fur, if it’s 2nd hand, or new and the animals are bred, not hunting depleting populations, and that the animals are kept healthy and happy. Actually animals bred for fur, are probably treated better than those bred for food, as any stress or bad diet I’m sure would be reflected in the quality of the coat, making quality of care a built in standard. Would I buy a new fur if I could afford it? Maybe, I’m not sure, I would have to know for sure where the fur came from. I do eat meat (though I didn’t for seven years, other than seafood), and I wear leather. Should we value one species above another? how do we evaluate? Intelligence? ecological impact? health? compassion? It’s an area that I feel where people have to make their own decision about what is right, and then act on it. I think it’s important to make an educated decision, see what all sides have to say on matters. Then make a choice that’s right for you, and evaluate it on a regular basis, things change, and people change. It’s a hot topic, I know.

I will treasure the hat and muff, they were in storage for ten years by the lovely woman that passed them on to me, and they had belonged to her mother, they’re likely a number of decades old. The hat is a style that was popular pre-60’s mostly, but has never gone out of style, and never really will, originating I think in the 20’s, it’s the style that fits tight to the head, low crown, tiny brim, and the hat brim is high one side, and then comes down on a bias to almost cover one eye, and low on the other side. I’m sure they were worn with love and care, cherished. I have a number of things in my possession that I treasure like that, antique ivory for one. In part it’s a celebration that we no longer thoughtlessly consume products like that. That there is consciousness behind our decisions to use animal products in our day to day use, at least to a greater extent than there has been. I don’t respect the people who throw paint on a fur any more than I respect people who would wear a fur from an endangered or rare species, poached sources, etc. Both show in my opinion a deep lack of respect, for man and animal. When I eat meat, I know I’m eating animals, when I wear fur and leather, I know I’m wearing animals, and I respect the animals that are feeding and clothing me. I try to treat my food and my clothes, with care and respect, for the once living things they were. How can their useless destruction combined with threat and disrespect of people really better things? Humans are animals too.

I have three boys lined up for photo shoots over the next week, interesting, will see how that goes, two CBT boys, and one face sitting boy. There are a slew of other leads to follow up on, considering the adult baby thing, but I’m going to wait on that a little bit longer, they’re not going to go anywhere, and as jOni just got back into town, I want to do some sissy content first anyways.

Survivor starts tonight! woo-hoo!

I fired my therapist today, through Wolfe, over the phone, in a phone message… can you get more distant? hoping for referrals for others I have to come through soon. Long story, but I do feel kind of like I’m floating in therapeutic absentia. I haven’t been able to see her all summer, so what good is having a therapist that I can’t see? nadda.

Fall seems to be coming down on us in sheets of grey and rain, typical of Vancouver, the wet coast. Though it’s still pretty warm, which agitates me, because one of the things I like best about fall is layering fall clothes, sweaters, leathers, boots, shawls, leather…. leather… without sweating to death. So I keep waiting for the cold to come! It’s supposed to be a mild year, fall and winter, so we’ll see.

I’ve only been 35 for a few months, but it seems like everything on my body has moved south a little, what gives? It could just be my imagination. I would seriously consider getting things ‘lifted’ if it weren’t a) so expensive and b) dangerous and impractical on a woman of my size with my health. However, if I end up with more money, and slimmer, well, some things I really do think could use a little ‘boost’. Every day my nipples look just a little bit further away… who knows, maybe it’s just my eyesight going!

XO
Leila

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