Poison and panic
Well, I had too much excitement today. Wolfe and tanuki headed out to go hiking this morning, and shortly after they left, while I was alone with the dogs, the two of them on the porch playing, me watching from up in the loft, keeping a mothers close eye. I noticed Bella had found something and was chewing on it, she dropped it, and I realized it was a cigarette butt. I took off down the ladder and out to the porch as quick as I could, rushing to her and prying open her mouth just as she finished swallowing down the last of the butt. Well, filters filter nicotine and other toxins, and are basically little doggie poison pills, especially when you are looking at a puppy so young, and so small…
Damn. I knew what I had to do asap, quicker than getting her to the vet, was to call the vet and find out what dosage of ipecac I needed to give her to induce vomitting here at home. I spent the next hour, giving a tsp of syrup of ipecac, waiting 5 minutes, trying again, until she heaved up, a lot but no butt, repeated again, finally she was heaving some more, and I watched as her little puppy body was shaking and shivering from feeling so sick, and she was heaving nothing but clear empty foam, either the butt was up or it was in. Dosing a dog can be difficult, particularly if you don’t have an empty syringe, which I didn’t have, Eye dropper too dangerous because her sharp little teeth and hard jaw could shatter the thin glass. I almost always had empty needle-less syringes for dosing animals, but searching the first aid kit turned up nothing. I resorted to filling baby bottle nipples with ipecac, forcing it to the back of her throat, and squeezing… worked, -most- of the time. We had some trials and tribulations, I got sticky, she got sticky, the floor got sticky (it is SYRUP of ipecac) I spent the next hour paper towelling up little piles of puppy vomit while watching her like a hawk for an increase or change in symptoms. Checking in with the vet’s office on a regular basis. She’s sleeping now, and hopefully all will be well. We have to watch her carefully and weather it out till tommorow morning, if she gets worse, we’ll bring her in to animal emergency.
I’m exhausted.
We were supposed to go to my sisters for dinner tonight, family thing, my parents are in town, they would be there, and one of my brothers, the evil one - the one I think of as the bother, rather than the brother, and his girlfriend (not evil). Had to call and cancel due to unforseen puppy poisoning.
I am SO pissed with the people in the suites above us that keep flicking their butts off their decks. We don’t smoke, and we are constantly cleaning up butts. It’s just not disgusting, but when you have pets, potentially deadly.
I have loads of emails to catch up with, I get a LOT of email. Some of it rather on the interesting side, since I have a large number of fetish websites. Here’s an example.
correspondant: “Do you offer chloroforming services?”
Moi: “No chloroforming is potentially dangerous, I don’t have training with anesthics and thus don’t use them in any scene. There is also the issue of legality. Among other concerns”
correspondants reply: “It’s not quite as dangerous as some have made it out to be. I’ve been playing with it for years and I’m still here. It does take a little knowledge and training to know how to use it though no question. As to the legalities it’s available on ebay and it’s status is sort of quasilegal. If you would know of any mistresses that would be willing I would greatly appreciate it if you could steer them my way. My former mistress got married and moved and is no longer available to me.
Thanks.”
I frequently get fetish bdsm type requests, for pro-Domme sessions, or for referrals, or for information. There are very few things that I place in the ‘not safe’ or ‘not ethical’ category really. 1) Don’t violate consent, actions need to be between consenting adults, a child, someone who is intoxicated, not concsious, absent, unaware, or for whatever reason incapable of making a truly INFORMED and EDUCATED consent decision, is off limits, so are there personal items. Just because people won’t/don’t know, doesn’t make it okay. consent, consent, consent. 2) If there is a chance you could die, or kill someone, because of high risk of std, staph, e-coli infection, cutting off too much blood to the brain, etc, don’t do it. Things under this category I consider not really a good idea, piercing into the testes themselves, ball sac is okay, but boys, the risk of infection of you break the barrier into your boys, is TOO high. Also, ummmm, no I don’t do castration, or cannibalism. Yes, I have been asked this before, more than once. Piercing, cool, if you know what you’re doing, and you’re using sterile needles in an aseptic environment, and you know where, when, how, and how deep you can go - otherwise you can end up with infection issues, or nerve damage, same with other techniques which breach the dermis. Don’t mess with illegal or quasi legal substances, they’re usually that way for a reason. If you choose to use a ‘recreational’ substance that may leave you ill, or worse, that’s your choice, it’s your body. Same with sticking pins in balls, etc. I know from people who have obsessive fetishes that I’m not going to be able to change that, but as a professional Domme, I can’t help you out with it, don’t want to, wouldn’t if I did, and can’t and won’t refer you to someone who says they can. Same goes for ingesting feces… uh… no. Golden is a go, brown is a no. Am I the ultimate authority? I don’t think anyone is the ultimate authority on anything. I try to make informed decisions, and when I come up against a fetish or play issue I’m unsure of, I research the hell out of it, I talk to members of the BDSM community who are very very experienced, and usually focus on those who are medical professionals, since there are a number of very kinky medical professionals, and thankfully I know a few of them. Then I try and make as sane a decision as possible.
Sometimes I even ask my mother… her response “ugh, I remember having chloroform used on me as a child, it’s absolutely horrible disgusting smelling stuff, if someone really wanted to do something that stupid, I’d at least switch to ether, people used it recreationally in the past even, though it can’t be good for you, but at least it isn’t as nauseating”
Personally I recommend you don’t do either, ether, either, whatever.
Now I know I’m probably going to get mails from people who do stuff I don’t think is cool, and explain to me why I don’t know what I’m talking about. Again, those are my limits, and what information I give out when people ask me. I mean, there are so many other fun things to do in the bdsm scene, if you really have an obsessive fetish for a particular activity which is on the unsafer side, try to find a safer alternative! We want to keep as many kinky people alive and kicking (screaming?) as possible.
XO
Leila