puppy PUPPY puppy
Well, little Bella is the joy of my life right now. She’s absoultely adorable. I’ve been Mommying her 24/7, which has been more of a joy than a chore. She’s smart, and curious, and a happy girl. Her and Iggy started really playing together today, whch was so cute, He’s really good with smaller dogs and puppies. It’s amazing he’s so strong that you can lift him out of the air with his tug toys, and he can whip your arm around, and give you the work out of your life, but the same tug toy shared between him and bella, well, he barely lets it dangle from his mouth, gives her an encouraging tug, shake, or growl, eveyonce in a while, but will play with her for a long time, just basically using hardly any of his strength or power. I hope they build a great companionship together.
Still no work from my (ex?) baby boy. Ah well, I give my heart, plus home made adult baby onesies with little bears lovingly hand sewn on them, stuffed bear, did I mention my heart? I’m left with little information, and some nice porn, which he’s probably making more use of than I am. I can’t really look at the piictures of us together. He left a shrt of his here that smells like him, If he’s not going to claim it within the next couple of days, I’m going to have to toss it. I made the mistake of bringing it my face and smelling it when I came upon it a few days ago, smell is such an instictual thing, I was a crying mess in an instant. Since the thing that happened with him, whatever that was exactly, the only AB stuff I’ve been able to shoot was with girls, and not with me in the pic. I’m wondering when and if I can get back to direct Mommying, photographing it, etc. I keep trying to remind myself that I’m a tough Dom bitch that should be jaded and thick skinned by now… it doesn’t work well for me.
Which reminds me I have to write back to the nice little boy who wants me to nail ihis penis to a block of wood at a play party, and exactly why that can’t really happen. It violates my own CBT rules, and I’m pretty sure house play party rules. Now, I can accomodate him by sticking some needles through his foreskin, and the skin of his penis and testes… but I rather do that at home, in better lighting, and with the camera capturing the art and craft of my needlework.
Maybe what I need to get over my adult baby is just a really good toy, someone that’s easy on the eyes, that I won’t be prone to developing feelings for, that I can just use and abuse, sexually and sadistically. I’ll probably get bored pretty quick, but it might be fun for a fast power tripping blast.
Boy or girl, I don’t care, I just want them to be… responsive, if you know what I mean, sluts, loud, eager, willing to take pain, wanting it, wanting domination, fucking, and to serve. Snap snap, service!
So few true serville pain slut subbies though, that really want to give as much as they recieve. Or can handle what I have to dish out.
Maybe time for me to so a little predatory prowl and see what is out there.
XO
Leila
