We’ve had a record hot summer here, and it’s been a record for me getting hot sweaty and skanky for day after day after day. I’m starting to seriously look forward to the fall. Had a little dip in my mood today that I rectified with a bit of a shopping spree. I really needed a couple of new bras and some panties, tank tops, those are kind of my staple ‘undergarments’ and then I had bought this pink shawl like poncho in a very fine lacy style weave, and decided, sure, why not buy them in every other color they make, being blue, white, and black. Considering I came home with 3 shawl/ponchos, 5 tank tops, 2 bras, and 5 undies, I don’t feel too bad for blowing a 138$ bucks. Thank you Army and Navy!

Had a serious talk with Wolfe recently, about me needing to do more for myself, my own care needs, making my own meals, helping with housework. It’s become second nature for both of us for him just to do it. But it’s not good for either of us, or our relationship. I don’t have good self esteem when I just manipulate into not doing anything. It’s a very damaging thing, depression or not, I have to do as much as I can for my own self care. It’s been challenging. I’ve had to find a new family Dr. as ours of several years is leaving her practice, and, I have to find a new psychiatrist because mine has moved so far away. It’s left me feeling a little lost in terms of medical support around my depression. We go to see our new Dr. next week, and have some referrals in to some psychiatrists from our old Dr., and maybe our new Dr. will also have some recommendations.

Sex has been a happy thing for me lately, it seems my drive is coming back… so far my trying to have an orgasm a day has been pretty ‘bang on’ so to speak, I have had a day without, but I’ve also had a day with two . It doesn’t hurt that I have an amazingly talented and sexy husband, a gorgeous and talented sexy boyfriend, and that I get to play with the sweet sexy little girl toy that my hubby has…
Purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Welp, I’m a seriously behind in website work, loads and loads of photos to edit for future updates.

XO
Leila