My new meds are rocking… Sex drive is back back back, and my constant craving for food is gone gone gone. It was the first day in years that I’ve had were I ‘forgot’ to eat, until my stomach starting to painfully remind me. The meds I’ve been on for the last few years had me in a constant state of ‘hunger’, and never feeling satisfied, over eating, craving sugar, etc. I hope it stays this way consistently. I’ve had an amazing day of small healthy balanced meals, followed by a night of intense kinky sex. Does life get better, (I know it can, I’m still missing the ‘boy’ terribly - I sleep with his teddy bear every night and pretend I’m holding him). But, I’m not feeling like too much of a position to complain when my ‘condition’ has improved. Though I haven’t left the house in about a week or so… still have problems with that, it’s not so much agoraphobia as apathy. The next time I’m doing Mommy stuff is going to be on wednesday, with my baby girl jOni, and a sissy baby I haven’t played with before. I know it’s going to be hard, I’m going to be thinking of my boy constantly, and missing him hard. I’ll be able to keep it together for a few hours for the other babes, but then I’m going to let myself have a little emotional melt-down. If I was still seeing him, he would have had time to see me on teusday, so it’s just going to be a little ‘what if’-ing in my head. Thank goodness for Wolfe, my loving Daddy. Who has agreed to my new body toning and cellulite reduction plan, which consists of regular firm beatings of any flabby bumby areas of my body, in other words, excuses for good spankings. Just to make it even more ’spa’ like besides getting a sound caning, paddling and spanking, we through in the use of one of those nubbly bumby props stores sell that is supposed to actually break down cellulite, it’s like a hair brush but instead of having thin spikes to seperate hair, it has larger nubbly bumpy plastic bits. having my sore paddled tushy oiled and then vigorously manipulated with said ‘cellulite breaking down tool’ was much fun, though I think the cane and the paddle and the t-ball bat was more effective in actual tissue breakdown. And yes, this is a good thing, trust me, faster results than what they do for you at a spa, and a lot more fun. The lovely thing about bodies, whether it’s muscle, skin, etc, is that when it gets ‘damaged’ it builds back firmer, stronger, etc. That’s why a lot of ‘bottoms’ have lovely ‘bottoms’. In martial arts they call it ‘body conditioning’ basically beating onself, or pounding objects, or pounding your body parts, knuckles, shins, abs, what have you, against hard objects, because it’s been known for centuries, and science has lately even proven it, that what happens is with the minute recurrent repetitive ‘damage’ done, martial artists through these ‘body conditioning’ techniques end up with harder denser muscles, skin, tissues, and even bones that are denser and tougher. So yes boys and girls, SM is not only fun, but in my opinion, very healthy, especially when in engaged in regularly. If you’re topping you’re getting a work out, and if your bottoming, you’re getting body conditioning… not to mention a little happy bio-chemical rush. I’m still flying while I’m writing this.

It was supposed to be a mostly butt and thighs work over, but somehow I ended up worked over all kinds of other places, and there was excessive use of black duct tape. Which was fun going on, fun having on, and even more fun being ripped off… I’m sure that skin will grow back firmer … duct tape, theres a beauty product that replaces waxing for hair removal, and exfoliation for dead skin removal all in one cheap alternative. Besides, women look better in duct tape than they do in a facial mask any day

Okay, enough out of me, it’s late, and I’m going to work a bit on my websites before I crash, while I’m still riding my buzz… have you checked out http://www.erotimania.com lately? We’re transforming it to a resource based site for alternative sexuality. I’m looking for submissions too btw, so if you have something to contribute to the greater good of promoting sex education, and kink, and what have you, send it my way!!!

XOX
Leila

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