It used to be, that poems would be born to me, oh, every few months. Then occasionally, they leave me all together for a while, a few years, of barren thoughts. I never force them, I never start out to say, today I will write a poem. They always start themselves, and [...]

After my post about my med change and regaining some of my sex drive, I got a bunch of mail from people curious to know what was working for me, because they’re having unwanted similar side effects, or other problems with their meds, so Im going to cut and paste what I wrote to the [...]

I still can’t believe how fast and furious I fell in love with him, and how much I miss him. A day, hour, doesn’t pass, where I don’t wonder if I should contact him, try and undo the ‘goodbyes’, but at the same time, I think, you know, when you love someone that much…. [...]

Daily Horoscope - March 21, 2004
First Name: Leila Sun Sign: Gemini Gender: F Leila
Sun Sign: Gemini Rising Sign: Cancer
Your easygoing attitude may be tested today, Leila, as your mind is suddenly being challenged by a subtle, yet strong force that is trying to put a monkey wrench into the [...]

My new meds are rocking… Sex drive is back back back, and my constant craving for food is gone gone gone. It was the first day in years that I’ve had were I ‘forgot’ to eat, until my stomach starting to painfully remind me. The meds I’ve been on for the last few [...]

Good Katt, Bad Katt, Fuck That! Well, I’ve successfully switched from one set of anti-depressent meds to a different set, that is a) working for me just as well, and b) HAS GIVEN ME MY FUCKING SEX DRIVE BACK.
Yay! Shit!
Okay… here I am, horny little (not so little) girl.
Of course still obsessing on the [...]

Well, an update… when not to fall in love - a) when the person you’ve fallen for is in a long term comitted relationship with someone else who is not polyamorous, not open to sharing, and does not know you, the ‘other woman’ exists.
Shit.
Why do I do these things to myself. I am completely [...]

Mmmmm… I get the boy Monday and Teusday for a wee bit. Nice, because I’ve been missing him. Challenging, because I’ve decided to stick to my ethics about not having sex with people who are involved with partners who don’t know about it. It’s weird, because a lot of what we’ve done together [...]

Mmmmmm, Momma has some serious motivation to kick her own ass back into shape. Even though the little cub I’ve become smitten with seems to adore my curves as they are. It’s just, well, he’s big, he’s buff, and he has some ground fighting training… and I just keep thinking it would be [...]

Maybe swimming in love would be a better phrase. When I met the boy, a number of months ago, on a blind ‘date’ for lunch. Not a romantic date even, just a friendly get to know you date. As I sat down at the table across from him, and got my first good [...]