Gabriola Island, off again, back again.

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Made last minute plans the day after I came back from LA, tuesday, to go over to one of the smaller gulf Islands with Wolfe and spend some time with my baby girl. We brought Iggy Piggy, and had a nice relaxing few days there, and just got back in today.

The ocean was beautiful, I did emerse myself in it, but didn’t really swim, just soaked in the shallows, and enjoyed watching Iggy swimming, fetching his squeaky ball in the waves. He loves to swim, and he loves his squeaky ball.

Other fun things were building some sand sculptures, cooking, visiting the local pub and catching the sunset, and spending time together with Wolfe, and with my AB. We did a whack of photos of all kinds while we there too, indoor, but inspired by the cabin/summer house where we were staying, which had interesting architecture and furnishings that gave me lots of ideas for images.

Keeping it brief, as I want to launch a new members area to my sites for the ageplay adult baby infantilism stuff I’ve been doing lately.

XOX
Leila

Home again, home again.

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Welp, just got in this evening back from LA and the HBO shoot for their real sex segment on adult babies. I thought over-all it went really well. I got to meet a great group of people, got a little shopping in, and I think the producer for the most part, did a good job of it. I don’t think it’s airing until winter, but they will be sending me a tape at some point as well.

It was all a little surreal, flying out, filming most of the weekend, and flying back. I wish I would have had more time there, to explore the city more. Who knows maybe they’ll have me back for another topic area some time. That would be fun.

It’s a short one tonight, I’m bagged.

XOX
Leila

HBO Real Sex segment on Adult Babies, becoming a Mommy, and more.

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Well life as usual, has been interesting, to say the least. Since I became involved (non-sexual) with an Adult Baby in a Dommie Mommie role, and have planned a birthing scene, (for later today no less), life has been pretty interesting.

Besides the usual down days from my depression which keep me limited, I’ve in the inbetween times been up to odds and ends, mostly working on the new Age Play, adult baby, website I’ve been doing, Dark Nursery.

Through that website, someone looking for participants for a segment on Adult Babies for the HBO real sex series, got a hold of me and invited me to participate. I agreed, and I’m heading out to L.A. to film in a big adult baby house party setting next weekend. I’m pretty hyped about that, and hoping I’ll have some time to shop for big girl clothes while I’m down there. When I travelled to Chicago some years ago for my residency requirement for the Masters program in psych that I was doing at the time, I didn’t have hardly any time to shop, but did discover, that ‘regular’ stores in the mall carried sizes all the way into the plus range. Here in Canada, other than a couple of very large department stores that carry everything for everyone. Clothing stores are ‘segregated’ into regular size stores, and plus size stores. With limited stores and selection for big women. So, I’m crossing my fingers! Shopping is fun fun fun. I just hope that the area they put me up in the hotel isn’t too far from cheapo stores… cause I’m a cheapo girl.

Speaking of cheapo, I had recently bought a long red leather dress on Ebay for a steal, and loved it so much, I had to order another one in black, it arrived today – it’s been a good week! Yesterday I bought another dress on ebay, this one a black and red silk asian mini dress… grrrr…. purrrrr… sexy clothes that fit me perfect, I love it. I’m now going to try and wean myself off of ebay shopping for a time, because I simply cannot afford to buy any more clothes (other than what I’ve budgeted for LA) I’m also pretty set for fall/winter clothes now, so I shouldn’t need to buy anything for quite some time. It’s a good feeling. For me, it’s really important, when I’m not feeling great about myself, or I’m feeling bad about all my weight gain (damn medications!!!!!) That I’m dressed really well, and looking put together, can sometimes make all the difference in the world. It can be just enough to give me that little boost. (Nothing like leather to give you a boost).

So today is a special day for me in another way as well. As I mentioned earlier, today is the day where I have my birthing scene with my Adult Baby girl. It’s the first ‘marker’ in this age-play relationship of major significance. It marks a commitment to one another for a D/s relationship of a special kind. It marks me embracing and honouring the role of an Ageplay Mommy. It’s a time of reflection for me, to look at a phase of life that perhaps I am entering on a larger scale. That of nurturing, and contribution. That over all I am entering a stage of my life, that hopefully will continue on well into the future, where I am able to give something back to community over all. The psychologist Erickson who identified a series of psycho-social stages of human development labelled one of the stages of life Generative vs Stagnation, said do start/develop between the ages of 25-50. Generativity is described as the ability to be productive and creative in any area of life, especially those that have to do with raising the next generation of people. According to Erickson, although this is often done through parenthhod, simply having children is neither necessary nor is it sufficient to be generative. A person who does not find a way to be generative is said to experience stagnation (a sense of “going nowhere”).

I feel that I have been a very creative person, and someone who has given back to society and community throughout my life, but it feels like this is becoming more and more a focus in my life as time goes on, and I feel in part, that the ‘re-birthing’ I’ll be sharing with my girl today is more than just the birth of acknowledging our roles with one another, but also acknowledging her Adult baby self in it’s indepencence/dependency, and my role as a generative spirit.

XOX
Leila.

The wonderful and world famous Peter Throckmorten

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Our dear friend Peter from Seattle popped in on us today. We had a short, but lovely visit. Had some late breakfast/lunch together, and then meandered about to do a little shopping. It was nice to catch up a bit, and always a pleasure to get his big warm bear hugs. We went through China town, and the sweetie bought me a beautiful little Japanese style ceramic candle holder, with cut outs to let the light through. We checked out a couple of my favorite shops, including the acupuncture/pressure store, which sells all kinds of fun things that can be used for nefarious kinky purposes. It’s where both Peter, and I, on seperate past occasions, picked up cupping sets – a form of old chinese therapy where cups are suction attached to your skin and draw toxins from your flesh – literally giant hickey makers. If you have them on hard and long enough, your pores ‘bleed’ into them – fun fun fun! They also sell tens units, they sell them for pain relief, I use them for electro-stim fun! Something I dearly want to purchase in the future. I also want to buy these bundles of rattan sticks they have for ‘impact massage’ but Wolfe persuaded me to wait for another day, where we have a little more fundage to spare. Then we walked through the gardens in China Town, beautiful, and made our way back to the loft together. Then Peter graciously allowed me to photograph him again – snapping pics always makes me happy.

So that’s made two days going ‘out’ in a row, not bad, hopefully I can keep it up into the week, and not downslide into depressionville too quickly again.

XOX
Leila

Sin City was a bit dull

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So did end up going over to Sin City, the fetish event across the street. Maybe I’m getting old, or maybe it’s the depression, but I get bored quickly at fetish events that don’t have alot of play. I guess more specifically if I’m not playing, and the play area they have is small and restrictive – so I rarely play there. I find usually it’s two hours, and I’m ready to go. I’ve had a chance to see all the different fetish outfits, puruse anything the vendors have for sale… and, I’m ready to go home, watch saturday night live, and order pizza. So was Wolfe, so that’s what we did.

I did get a lot of inspiration for fetish gear that I would like to make/get, so I think in some ways it’s good to get the creative juices going, but, I could surf the net for the same inspiration, and not pay 10 bucks a piece for two cover charges, buy some very expensive pop, and make brief conversation with the people I know. I also end up jonesing for the opportunity to photograph half of the really wicked looking people, but don’t have the motivation to approach them about it.

So Wolfe and I sit, chat, discuss the view, sip our drinks, mine non-alcholic, his the indulgence, and then around the same time, we’re ready to head, the long trip across the street home.

I did get to wear my new leather dress, and I think the best thing about that was just the smell of leather enveloping me for a couple of hours… yummy.

XOX
Leila

Using Grey Matter

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Well, I’ve finally switched by journal over to using this software… grey matter allows me to just log in, write, and post, so I’m hoping that it will encourage me to start writing more again. I’ve been having a weird week. Been having enough depression/anxiety to keep me house bound all week, but thankfully not enough to totally encapacitate me, which means I’ve been able to do stuff from home anyways.

I’m trying to perk myself up to go to Sin City tonight, it’s a local fetish event at a night club that is literally right across the street from me, it doesn’t get much more convenient than that!

I ordered this amazing red leather dress off of ebay, and I need an excuse to wear it! I have already worn it for some photos we did the other day, but I can’t wait to get into it again. The person making them is discontinuing this particular item, and moving into only makng pvc things. They were selling the last few of them they had, and they had them in black too. I convinced Wolfe to let me order another one in black, and I can’t wait. It’s a long dress, that has a two way zipper, from top to bottom in the front, so you can pick how low a neckline you want, and how high a slit. It’s fitted really well, with long sleeves, and two low zipper pockets. It fits me well, and I could even wear it as a coat layered over a thin under layer. Only 100$ US, and only 11$ for the shipping, that’s only 175$ Canadian. – We can’t even buy that much leather locally of that quality – it’s beautiful soft garment leather, feels like lambskin, for that price. In Canadian dollars, 175$, which is what my tailor made by the least expensive tailor in town I could find, long dress made of pvc cost me, with the pvc itself being on sale. So it was a have to have, if I lose weight, I’ll have them taken in, they’re spectacular.

One of my other great clothing finds was a ‘school girl uniform’ last time I was at value village, many days ago now. I picked up a plaid skirt in my size, it’s too long, but that’s an easy hemming job, then picked up a white shirt, and waltzed over to the mens ties and picked a tie to match the skirt. I don’t know why I haven’t done it sooner, I’ve been looking at the school girl uniforms for sale in adult stores and stuff, and cringing at the cost, silly me!

Ah well, enough from me… going to post this thing and run off to other places in the cyber ether.

XOX
Leila

new clix graphic

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Time for a new ‘Clix’ graphic soon… It’s been a while since I’ve had a bright red mohawk. Probably by the time I get around to changing the graphic, my hair will have changed again. I’m still in the process of growing it out right now. Grow it out, and then shave it all off again at some point, is the most likely thing to happen.

I’ve neglected my journal for the longest stretch of time in a while. For a couple of reasons, I spent most of the week last week out of town, over on the Island visiting my parents, and my sister and her family. Had a good time there. Playing cards with Wolfe and my parents – hand and foot, which is a version of Canasta. Second hand store shopping – found a cute baby bonnet that’s big enough for the biggest headed adult. Swimming in my sisters backyard pool, and generally, just taking it easy. Also visited with a lovely Adult Baby who lives on the Island, Puppy, who has his own nursery – it’s all decorated in 101 Dalmatians and Spot themes. We took some photos while we were there, but mostly got to know Puppy a little better. He seems like a real sweetie, I’m hoping to go spend a longer play and photo time in the fall. Also met an Island Domme – Mistress Cat, and since I go by Mistress Katt, it was interesting, another very warm, and pleasant person, who I hope to get to know better.

Wolfe and I also made a trip to the cemetery while we there, and shot some interesting erotic Goth pics among the grave stones, bound and blindfolded laying on graves, straddling headstones, climbing corpse fed trees, and general naughty mayhem – they turned out quite well, I’m rather pleased with them.

While we were gone, I missed the ups delivery of a new red leather dress I bought on ebay, it was an absolute steal, and my size. They are going to re-deliver it, but I won’t get it till next week, which is a bit of a bummer, because it’s the pride weekend here, and there are play parties and leather events galore.

We went to a play party last night, the BIO one, and are thinking of going to another tonight, though this morning, I don’t really feel like it. I played with Wolfe last night, which means I bottomed, and my bottom is lovely and sore, black and blue in places. I got to wear a brand new outfit that I made from vintage thrift store scraps. I received a lot of compliments on it. I will definitely be doing a photo shoot or two in it, so images will show up here at one point or another. I can’t ‘sew’ worth a damn, but it’s put together from various garments and hand stitched. Too much bother to describe right now, as my attention span is being pulled away from the journal entry and off into plans for a lazy day.

More soon, I hope.